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not eating or being hungry but kinda repulsing the idea of eating is a disorder?
Eating Disorder Support / by thenewkaty
Last post
 July 26th, 2021
...See more a friend of mine keeps pointing i may have an eating disorder because i can go a long time without eating (until i start to feel very weaky, shaky and as i'm about to faint) and sometimes i can't get myself to want to eat even if i'm hungry, cause thinking of food, chewing, swallowing, makes me feel nauseated and nervous, all the time i just wanna finish the meal... i'm not sure why i feel this way, maybe it's the anxiety i believe i have, anxious people have problem at eating... it's not because of my appearance, actually i'd like to gain some weight, but i never gain i just keep mine... right now i feel a little bit hungry because the last time i ate today was 16pm... it's just i "forgot" to eat or was just too distracted to do anything... (today is one of those days i don't leave my room, i don't do anything else but binge watching all day). gosh, i'm just gonna sleep, it's 3am
how do i know if i'm an addicted?
Addiction Support / by thenewkaty
Last post
 September 24th, 2022
...See more it's 2:46am here now and this isn't the first time (not in this week, not in my life) i stay up late online... i see my use as a form of escaping from my mind... maybe it's more like an (ab)use of the intent... okay, today i spent the whole day in my room, watching series and videos on youtube, i didn't even shower or eaten dinner... sometimes i don't want to be here, on the phone, but i don't seem to know or want to do anything else... sometimes i'm just bored of the internet, my phone, my apps... they don't satisfy me, don't make me feel better... they actually make me feel worse, because i know i'm wasting my time with them. i can't really justify my use with my possible disturbs like anxiety, depression, adhd, dissociation... i haven't been diagnosed, i don't know if i ever will because i don't know when i'll get to do therapy... anyway, my phone doesn't make me happy, but keeps my mind busy and me distracted from things that i can't stop thinking of... but sometimes that distraction it's too big and i can't get to do anything, so i'm an already hard to manage time and tasks person and then i find something that gets in the way even more... i'm way too conscious of my actions and duties/chores... i'm also very aware of my procrastination... it's not like i don't care, it's that sometimes i don't even want to get out of bed, let alone do all my chores, study and keep a healthy way of living... i just wanna feel good, i do feel good when i accomplish things, but internet works too... i don't really like social media but i still use it anyway...
i make things weird and seem to be always thinking about sex-related things
Addiction Support / by thenewkaty
Last post
 July 26th, 2021
...See more gosh, i don't even know what to write or what to say that'll describe what's going on my mind... it's 2:20am here... okay, i'm a 18 year old woman/girl... i'm sure i'm not a porn or sex addicted, but i do worry about having a... "disturbing" behavior with sex-related topics... idk how to describe it. i was 10 the first time i search for naked people online, i can't really remember how often i watched porn, saw these pics and masturbated... i've always felt the need to control myself because of religion, but it's been 2 years since that doesn't longer matter to me as much... i've always thought about sex, that's normal, but i'm not sure if as frequently as i do and not at almost every situation (not like i imagine doing it with the people i am with at the moment, no, more like daydreaming with sex... if that makes sense)... sometimes i feel my "hornyness" is a coping mechanism of mine. i seem to have more interest in porn and masturbation as i feel worse, so being in a bad mood is like the click for it to happen... i had a girlfriend and we used to do couple stuff, not sex, but teasing and making out, mostly online, we dated secretly... i spent most of the time thinking about her and imagining being intimate with her... we broke up but remained being friends... i think she's moved on, but i didn't... i still think about here like that and try to get her in the mood, but it's not gonna work, it bothers her, it's uncomfortable, i know, but i just keep behaving badly with her... she knows i want her more than as just friend, but i know she doesn't anymore... sometimes i feel like i'm always thinking about sex or sex-related things... i don't masturbate as much as i used to years ago... i do it every 2 weeks more or less and i don't usually watch porn, i try very hard to not to, if it happens it's like once or twice a month... and when i do watch porn it's just until i get "satisfied" (i don't think i'm ever really satisfied, i don't feel like it's good enough) after that i don't even see the point of watching that, most of it it's fake anyway and those that aren't probably were posted without authorization... anyway, when i'm really low i "discount" on masturbation and if i'm really bad/horny and it's after 1am i'll probably search for and watch a porn... i mean... i am always thinking about sex, i never get to do it (although i got really close to a few times), when i do masturbate most of the times aren't as good as i expected, i don't see the point of watching porn (i know i just shouldn't) and i'm making my best friend (ex-gf) really uncomfortable with my constant attempts of teasing her into a sexy vibe with me... she doesn't want it. also sometimes i just hit on people then i regret it after my hornyness pass (one time i even had a panic attack for that). i'm that one person that keeps asking for nudes.
I think I have ADHD? Maybe I should pursue a diagnosis?
ADHD Support / by thenewkaty
Last post
 July 21st, 2021
...See more Hi, I'm 18 and I'm sure I got a few issues and disturbs that stop me from doing the stuff I want and am supposed to do... Recently I found out I may have ADHD and I think that would explain a lot of stuff. Like, I always let stuff to the last minute, I was always late going to places (school, courses, appointments, everything with specific hour of starting), I can't follow routines, I'm having a lot of trouble remembering stuff I just saw, I'm having a hard time focusing... Idk... I have a lot of stuff going on at the same time in my mind that I just get lost and tired... p.s.: I'm not allowed to go to therapy, so I don't know when I'll get professional help and try to get any diagnosis... I do know other disturbs can cause ADHD symptoms and I'm just so lost.
I can't get comfortable around people
Anxiety Support / by thenewkaty
Last post
 August 10th, 2021
...See more I get all weird, I don't know how to act or what to say. Then I overthink everything I did or say and feel bad, stupid, dumb... I get nervous, can't act natural and just be myself. I only feel okay with people I love and trust.
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