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tealCity8225
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Letters
General Support / by tealCity8225
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 October 30th, 2023
...See more I miss the time when people wrote letters. The time and effort of writing a letter is beautiful. Didnt matter if it was a post card or a 5 page letter. Someone took the time to find paper. Maybe even a oretty pen, some folded it in a special way, the time to write it out, find a envelope, a stamp. Putting it in thr mailbox and waiting and watching. Getting a reply was such a warm feeling. I miss writing letters. I remember once i got a letter from someone i didnt know. They were in prison. He just wanted someone to write to him, to tell him about their day. He had no one. Picked my address out of a phone book at random. We wrote to eachother for over 2 years. Then one day the letters just stopped. I never found out why, but was gratefuk to have gotten the chance to know him. I wish i stikl received handwritten letters. It always made my day.
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Tw-self-destruction
Trauma Support / by tealCity8225
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 October 26th, 2023
...See more Im drowning! I cant breathe! I feel so hollow annd empty. I just cant take it anymore. Whats the point. I have so much guilt, shame, pain. I have so many questions that no one can amswer. I have so much anger. Why did my daughter die. Why would god take my son 10 months later? Why was i raped as a child? Why did my therapist tell me it was my fault. Why did the man i love leave me on wgat should of been our dead daughters 5th birthday. Why am i still here?! Why cant i feel anything more then just pain and emptiness. Why do i hate myself so much. Just why..
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5 years
Grief & Loss / by tealCity8225
Last post
 October 27th, 2023
...See more October 30th marks 5 years since i lost my son. Im losing my mind. Its been a long tim since i felt this empty. A long time since i felt so broken. Whats the point anymore? First i lose my daughter then my son. Whats the point? How can anyone handle losing two babies in one year? My daughter should still be here! I should of been putting her on the bus this mornjng along with her brother. But i didnt. My life is a wreck. I feel like i cant breathe. I feel like im drownjng and yet theres no water around me. I feel so broken....i feel like giving up. Whats the point? Whats the point..
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Trauma Support / by tealCity8225
Last post
 October 19th, 2023
...See more Today i had to go to my 4 year olds school for fire and ems day. The kids got to check oht the fire truck and ambulance. On the side of the ambulance it said Rileys children hospital it takes strength. It took everything I had no to cry in front of my kid and all the other children and parents. That's where my daughter died. I lost her on April 1 Easter morning 2018. My son, he died October 30, 2018. It's been *** here lately. I've been struggling. I can't seem to feel anything except pain. And I'm so damn tired. I'm so tired. I feel like calling it quits to be honest. I don't want this pain anymore. I don't want this grief. I'm just tired
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No Words
Grief & Loss / by tealCity8225
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 October 16th, 2023
...See more There are no words that describe a parent that loses a child. The pain is almost unbearable. Time freezes. The world slows down or speeds up. Your left standing still. Every breath is painful. Every thought bears the weight of 1,000,000. As time goes on, people expect you to go back to normal. At first it's impossible. But slowly you learn to put on a smile. You start to laugh. And even though your smiling laughing having fun. The pain is still there. Just as intense as it was when it happened. It never goes away. That's how I feel today. Everyday...
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How to get the fight back.
General Support / by tealCity8225
Last post
 October 7th, 2023
...See more I'm here because I'm hurting. I've been silently hurting for over 5 years now. I learned to bury my pain within me. The end of October marks 5 years since I lost my son. This past March marked 5 years since I lost my daughter. Me and the father just recently split. Now I'm struggling to figure out how to handle the upcoming anniversary. And I can't seem to bury the pain anymore.
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