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silenceofturtles56
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Depression Support / by silenceofturtles56
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 February 11th, 2015
...See more This hasn't happened for a while, but this whole week I've been in a mood and I honestly think it's my depression coming back. I can tell all my built up stress is pooling out, but instead of crying and feeling it all, I just feel numb. I have these thoughts that make me feel like crap and they scramble my mind. The only light I can see myself in is a negative one. I look on the mirror and think I'm fat and useless to everyone; only here to waste space. Don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal, it's just how I honestly feel. My mom is angry each day towards me and nags about my every action. Both my parents are complaining about money and pushing me at a job (which is reasonable since I'm almost 18, but they're rude about it). I have the pressure of graduating high school in three months and I'm worried about college. There's an issue from my past weighing on my mind and it has me remembering everyone who has walked out on me ever; and believe me, there's a lot. This anxiety is horrible and I'm really hoping to avoid having an anxiety/panic attack like I normally have, so I thought reaching out for once may actually help. I don't want to sink back into the depression I finally got out of last year.
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