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sensiblePlum4168
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Not enough, limited, stupid, B1 English level, can't find a job. Failure. Shouldn't be born from the first place. -thats me. 😅

Recent forum posts
I don't feel like doing anything
Depression Support / by sensiblePlum4168
Last post
October 19th
...See more Past few months I don't feel like doing anything. I feel like I'm just breathing but I'm dead inside. I have a lot of thoughts like what if I don't exist? What if I can go back to past and change everything? 😞 I don't want to do anything anymore. I'm tired to deal with expectations.
Hi
Women's Issues / by sensiblePlum4168
Last post
September 23rd
...See more I miss my old self. I wish I can be messy and lazy for the times that I'm not in the mood. Now that I'm married, I feel guilty whenever my husband or my in-laws saw me holding my phone or do nothing. I'm thinking that they might think that I'm a bad lazy person for a moment that they found me resting.
I'm not happy
Women's Issues / by sensiblePlum4168
Last post
September 23rd
...See more Hi I'm not happy. I have no progress in life after I got married. I resigned because my previous work was far from our new house. Now, I cannot do anything better aside from house hold chores. My husband ask me to find a job because I need to. I want to find a job in a work from home set up but no matter how I tried, I'm not qualified because I'm not smart. I want to continue my school to finish my degree but also they want me to conceive a baby. Don't judge me, I want to have a baby too. I cannot post my true feelings in social media because I have to protect my marriage. That's why I just post it here. Good thing, we don't know each other here. ❤️ I miss my old life before my marriage. I can buy things that I want to buy. Now, I can't. Btw, how are you?
I feel like I'm crying out loud
Depression Support / by sensiblePlum4168
Last post
March 25th
...See more I'm not happy. I don't know what to say here. I just know that I'm not feeling good. Hehe 😅 No job No fallback No diploma Rejected Hope everything will be okay. If not, please give me strength to go on.
I hate my life
Self-Esteem / by sensiblePlum4168
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February 4th
...See more Reasons why I hate myself: 1. I have a lots of insecurities. I have periodontal disease. I have no money to cure it. It's painful 😭 2. I'm an undergraduate (I'm looking for short courses available) 3. Because of my looks, people can't take me seriously. I'm ugly. I have a lots of pimples. (trust me, I always drink a lots of water and I have a good hygene. I'm always changing my pillowcases and bedsheet weekly) 4. I can't find a decent job. 5. I'm not smart. I don't know. I'm not fluent in English written and verbally. 6. I know this are petty reasons and others may have worse than I have. It's all in my head. But people are different. 😭 please don't invalidate my feelings. Sometimes, I wish that I wasn't born.
Just lost my part time job
Work & Career / by sensiblePlum4168
Last post
December 15th, 2023
...See more 😭 I cannot help myself and I cannot even help my husband. Whenever I look for a new job, I'm always rejected. It's hard to find a job for a B1 English level. No one is hiring me for VA jobs. 😭
I'm not good enough.
Depression Support / by sensiblePlum4168
Last post
November 20th, 2023
...See more I feel helpless. I feel like I'm a stupid that I couldn't get a job. Unlike any others can get the job easily because they are intelligent and I'm not. I'm always rejected for a job. I feel like I'm a burden to the people I love. I don't want to be like this but I can't help myself. I feel that I cannot breathe while everyone around me breathing. I need help but I don't know where to start or how to start. I feel like I'm floating alone and no one cares and if they care, they are annoyed. 
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