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Anhedonia/Emptiness
Depression Support / by rosehi80
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 April 30th, 2021
...See more Hello fellow travelers. Thank you for being here, and for listening. I am someone who has struggled with depression since I was 19. I began taking medication at the age of 27 and am now 40. I participate in therapy and am also in recovery. I have family support and two beautiful children. I am blessed in many ways. However, despite the medications and therapy, I feel *numb* and *empty* a lot. We've tried reducing my meds which always creates more issues. I've tried different meds. But nothing really takes away the empty, disconnected feeling I have. I don't feel excited when my kids want to show me something. I don't feel connected to friends. I pretend to be engaged but often am just play-acting, which I am quite good at. At this point, I'm switching therapists, as the one I have hasn't been able to help me on this particular issue. My worst fear is that it can't be fixed, and I'll be numb and disconnected forever ‐ through all the beautiful moments of my kids growing up, through everything...I'll just keep having to pretend. I could use some insights and encouragement as sometimes, I don't know what to do or where to turn.
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