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riseandshineitsanewday
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I don't want to do this anymore
Trauma Support / by riseandshineitsanewday
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 May 19th, 2020
...See more I know I'm wrong, I know there's something about me that just doesn't add up. When you first meet me I'm a good, uplifting and productive citizen who always wishes to better themselves but shit, that's not true. I force myself to do that because I think that if I keep being a good person good stuff will come to me but I just end up being agressive, impulsive and hurting everyone that is dear to me no matter what I do. It almost feels like a curse. I had several traumatic experiences, bullying related and with my parents. I didn't live a happy childhood and I've been a lonely person in general, but I don't want that anymore. I'm so so willing to change, but whenever I try and do my best it just messes up and I end up going to the past, lost me that always haunts me every day of my life. It almost feels like someone, no something, that pulls me and chains me to the past events that happened to me, no matter how much I calm down and do whatever my therapist says I should do Edited by FM CaringBrit moved it to a more appropiate area of the trauma subcom the areait was posted in is more for te trauma team
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