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rationalPond9530
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I broke up with someone I love so much
Relationship Stress / by rationalPond9530
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 September 11th, 2021
...See more I broke up with my boyfriend of 8 months 3 weeks ago. Meeting him was unexpected. Being in a relationship was unexpected. We lived together for 4 months right from the day we met and then he had to go back to his country. We were together for 4 months in a long distance relationship. He came to see me in the middle of lockdown, spending a lot of money, just to see me. He is the kindest, nicest guy I know. He always treated me well. We used to cuddle all day, I loved him, love him so so much. It was so amazing. But even with him, I always felt lonely. Like, I couldn't connect with him. I was miserable even when I was with him. I felt like I couldn't be myself. There was always this strong feeling that something was missing. I think I loved him too much. More than he loved me. Eventually, the distance made the issues worse. I was so lonely even when I was with him. And he wanted different things, spending time on them and not giving me time. I was hurting too much and I broke it off with him 3 weeks ago. We both said I love you to each other. I haven't talked to him since. I said I need time before I can contact him even though he wanted to stay in touch. He said he'll respect my wish. I love this man so so much that I've been a mess. I can't function. My heart feels heavy. I cry at random times. I can't bear this sadness. I miss him so much. If I couldn't be with someone so amazing, I don't think I can be with anyone else. I've no one that I can speak to. I've no one to console me. I feel broken. I can't see the point of living anymore. I haven't yet accepted that we are not together. So my heart keeps hoping but it won't happen. I lost myself and I don't know how to move forward.
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