I HAVE A VERY LAZY PERSONALITY. So I may not be able to write that much :)

— 14 yrs old

— She/her

— Straight/ Maybe bisexual (haven't figured out yet)

— Not quite a talker unless you know me well

— Average in studies

— Support LGBTQ+

— A matchmaker

— Feel free to take relationship advices & if you have anxiety problems (I have them too but I can help ya)

— Doesn't feel comfortable around new people. Can't start a conversation myself first. You have to take the initiative :)

Suffering from social anxiety, stage fear, many insecurities, ADHD, family problems.

And yeah, I HATE SCHOOL.

Hobbies: writing novels and poems, Reading romance novels, watching kdramas, anime, Taylor Swift, Lana Del Rey.

A glimpse of my poems and thoughts:

(The topic is inspired by Taylor Swift)

BACK TO DECEMBER

I have come a long way now,

The tears are draining off my cheeks

like the soft dunes of snow in December.

My dreams are crashing into the walls

of my kidneys, making a perfect hole.

The air is draining out and I can no longer feel it.

The fan is on the hard ceiling, ripping out every piece of me at 3am.

People are such simpleton.

They get so carried away on their birthdays, but still haven't realised they are closer to death day by day.

I really don't give a fuck about how people treat me, but at the same night, I'll be laying in my sheets thinking bout' how it went wrong.

*But you know, the soft dunes of snow in December have to melt someday.*

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(The topic is inspired by Melanie Martinez)

D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E

Parents never wake up from there dreams.

They have every single information about their childs, but have they ever asked their child if they are okay?

Schools, coaching, families. They expect that if they scold and motivate enough, IT WOULD BE FINE.

But have they thought about the amount of pressure the kid is suffering from?

They always want their child to be lustrous and all.

They never want us to hide in those sheets and cry.

They never want us to get a pretty boy and talk to him about your problems.

Parents tell us to work on ourselves. You know?

Their life was full of rainbows and kids playing all around. But times have changed and people have changed.

Its 2023. Understand that.

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I always want to talk to people. However, I have social anxiety so because of that, sometimes the way I talk, it feels like I am rude to some people. But I never mean to talk rudely to someone. Please don't mind me if I do something stupid. And yeah, I think I need medical help lol.