Hi my name is Robin... Im a single Mother of a 7 year old son. Jan 5th, 2014. I lost the love of my life.(My sons father)..Two months before our son turned 4 years old. He went to the Hospital because his stomache hurt bad and while he was in the ER i was sitting with him. He seemed fine.. He just couldnt laugh because it would hurt worse. Well I was there with him for about an hr and then I had to get back home to our son... I never would of left him if I new How bad he really was... Anyways before I left I gave him a kiss and told him to call me or send me a text to let me know what was going on... He never called! The last thing I got was a text saying that he was being shipped to a better hospital t help him... Still I didnt think anything of it because I thought it was due to his weight of why he was being shipped out..... I told him to keep me Posted!!! Well thats the very last time I heard from him... I must of fell asleep with our son and when I woke up no call or text from him... so I called the hospital he got shipped to to see what was going on and they told me that he went through Cardiac Arrest for 15 min on the way there and that he was brain dead... Told me I needed to get there and Fast... I started to freak out thinking omg, he's going to Die... Our son will never see his daddy again.. it isent fair and I dont get how things happen the way they do... He was a good mad and loved us so so much... Everytime I would think of our son I'd start crying my eyes out! Anyways I went to the hospital and he was in SCU(special care until on Life support).... Thats when they told me I had a decision to make and that I didnt have Much Longer...Thats when my life shattered... I didnt believe what the Docters were saying and I kept saying he will wake up.. Give him time... 5 days later they pulled the Breathing tube.. It was the longest moments of my life....I sat there Praying to god to please save him, we arent ready for him to go yet... We need more time.. Well, thats when His heart stopped.. 
As a child growing up, I went through so much abuse.. I was Raped by my uncle when I was just 5 years old... Then My mother met this man who molested me from the time I was 6 till I was 17years old... At 18 years old He raped me and I got pregnant...Believe it or not I was kinda happy because I'd finally be able to love someone who would love me back! Thats until 4 months into my Pregnancy when I went to The ER Because I had these pains and I was Bleeding... I was Having a miscariage.. I lost it!!!  Then I turned to Drugs, beacuse I was so so depressed and didnt wanna feel or care about anything anymore... So I started doing Drugs with my mother... It got so bad one time That I got raped again by 2 men at once and thats when i hit Rock Bottom... SO i checked myself into rehab and stayed 28 days... Went home and relapsed... Started doing drugs again to block out the hurt and to ease the pain that I was in... It worked for a while...Then I finally said to myself, that I cant live like this anymore... and That I can make a better life for me and do something with my life... I havent used since! I was still pretty depressed that I started going to counsling Because It to the point of me trying to end my life.. Growing up not knowing really what love was. thinking that it was normal for children to be Abused... Not being close to anybody in my Family.. And always feeling like an outsider looking in!  A year went by. I was still depressed, and very lonely.. All I wanted was somebody to love me!  Well I got a Job, and it was going good... It was nice to look forward to a check... Then I seen this guy staring at me, I was staring back as well.. He came up to me and asked me if I was interested on going on a Date... I said I'd love that... Since that first date we never stopped being together... I moved right in with him right away and we were happy...I was really happy... I finally found someone who loved me.. And he did... Years went by, and we dicided to start a family... So time went on and For some reason I couldnt get pregnant... Then we Say we would stop trying and the moment we did. I was Pregnant.. I finally found the love I have been wanting my whole life... And we had a little boy who was our everything... He was Such a blessing.. FInally I got what Ive always wanted... A love of a Family... Then Jan 5th 2014... He Passed away... He was the love of my life, and Im so lucky to have such a loving man... Wow I WAS LUCKY... Then that quick, hes gone... Our son is now 7 years old.. And we miss him so so much... I havent been with anybody since... Now its, Me and our son agaisnt the world... I am Clean.... I am still young and I have alot of love to give... Sometimes I wonder if I will ever find Love again. But that aint possible... My Love is Gone... Please keep ur loved ones close because you never know it could be your last...