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I get anxious thinking about it
Anxiety Support / by passionateNorth2259
Last post
 September 29th, 2023
...See more Hi everyone Hope you all are doing well Back in school when i was 13 and even during my teenage days i help a lot of people cheat during the exams I basically was a timid person and i can get easily pushed around and i will do what students ask me to do especially if they were bad students. I would help them cheat because i thought that would help me get along with them. So i helped some student cheat during the exams and i remember someone told me that the teachers are aware that I'm helping them cheat even once someone caught me but because of my reputation of being a good kid and accomplished student they let it slide and didn't punish me. However till this day i keep feeling guilty and anxious for the wrong things that i did and I'm overthinker i just go deep in my thoughts and keep imagining what would have happened if someone grabbed me and slap me for helping them cheat. I get very anxious thinking about myself and how timid and weak i was for not standing up and teling them no.
Difference between the best of tou and the best in you
General Support / by passionateNorth2259
Last post
 September 23rd, 2023
...See more Hi everyone Hope you all are doing good I'm not american so english isn't my first language and i don't really understand that much about their grammar and the meaning behind some terms and sentences So i got question that has been going through my mind for a while What's the difference between " the best of you" and " the best in you" ? I know it may sound like a stupid question to you but like i said english isn't my first language and I'm really overthinker i don't want to ruin my sleep by thinking about it the whole night. So i need your help
Couldn't add my thread
General Support / by passionateNorth2259
Last post
 September 25th, 2023
...See more Hi everyone A few hours ago i tried to add a new thread where i talked about my experience with cyber bullying and the effect it had on me I wrote really a long thread and when i finished i pressed add and they said we are having technical issues on this app Basically i couldn't add my thread I tried to do it like three times but it keep showing me the same message about technical issues over and over again Can anyone care to explain or help me ?
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Trauma Support / by passionateNorth2259
Last post
 September 22nd, 2023
...See more Hello everyone
My principles and ethics
Journals & Diaries / by passionateNorth2259
Last post
 September 13th, 2023
...See more Hello everyone ,it's me again I will get to the point immediately I'm a muslim from Saudi Arabia In our religion we have our own principles and ethics We don't eat pigs We are against homosexuality We don't hang out or start a relationship with other girl who is not your wife And many many more what you would call a sin(haram) But i wanna talk about the last one( relationship with girls) but not in the real world of course because even through in some muslim countries they r kind of ok with the idea of a girl to hang out with boys Where i live we are strictly against it we don't even allow for a girl or boys to talk with eachother out of respect and ethics I don't have a problem with that i fully supported now However there was time where i kind of forgot about our religious ethics and principles Let me explain further In 2009 i started using the Internet after my brother gave me his computer when he bought a laptop for himself I usually spend time watching wrestling videos or the dark knight or anime or play free online game ( specifically escape room) But in 2010 i signed in online forum after my sister told me about it I was on online forum that was a fan website of a cartoon channel i use to love and watch. And there i got to know a lot of...well girls. And it really brought the worst out of me I would talk to someone on chat and play on the forum and without knowing i end up falling in love with them I would get upset when they don't talk to me or massage me Or whenever i think they like someone else or they spend time talking to or take care of another member of the forum it bring a big jealousy out of me I became angry and aggressive I would get very upset and start accusing people of not caring about me and it went so far of insulting people I basically embarrassed myself infront the whole forum And as a result I got a bad rep of being short tempered and sensitive guy to the point where people avoid talking to me And say that I'm hateful and don't associate yourself with him Even some members i don't know would come to me in chat and start insulting and pick on me without doing anything to them that's how unpopular i was Basically online relationship with girls brought the worst out of me and i have been obsessed with online forums since 2010 because Of that until when i decided to stop in 2022(for a specific reason i might talk about it on other thread) And because in early 2010s i was going through a lit of personal issues and the internet was my escape so i really considered it as a home But what happened was i told my big brother and cousin about everything i went through told me it's wrong and a sin to have a relationship with another girl our religion doesn't allow that they reminded me of my principles and ethics is more important than strangers you met online Some of you might say it's different to talk with girl online and real world..which is true but if my reasons to talk with girl on forums or any place online is to satisfy my personal need and fill my emotions with love and compassion And to have a girl in my life who im not going to marry it's still wrong And ever since then i made a promise to not go back to online forums and not to have a relationship with another girl And stick to my principles and ethics because if i forgot about them i would be lost You may Have a blessed day
Having a crush on fictional character
Personality Disorders Support / by passionateNorth2259
Last post
 September 5th, 2023
...See more Hello everyone..i hope all of you are doing good First i really didn't know where to put this thread because i didn't find the perfect place for it and 7 cubs changed since the last time i was here so i decided to put it here because i think it's a disorder i have been dealing with for a long time Secondly it's something too embarrassing to talk about or even mention it so i really was hesitate to talk about it but i just can't be quiet and i need to get this off my chest I have this weird habit of developing a crush on a fictional character ..i would watch a movie and see this female character who is beautiful and amazing then i start to fell in love with her And it's not normal love ...i start to have a deep feeling for her to the point where i get depressed...for instance that character have a boyfriend or got married it will hurt my feeling as if it's something that happened to me in a real world or as if i know that character in real life...i feel like a character in her fictional world where i have a relationship with her. And i would spend my entire day thinking about her which effect my mental health and attitude . This is something i have been dealing with since i was a child and i just couldn't get rid of the habbit or whatever you want to call it. Have a blessed day 🙏
Still living my childhood bullying trauma
35 & Over Community / by passionateNorth2259
Last post
 July 29th, 2023
...See more I remember it like yesterday I'm sitting in the class...surrounded by 8 or 9 students...al of them are mocking me and provoking me They make fun of my appearance They keep poking me for being socially awkward and going outside of my house Everytime i talk i can hear them laughing behind me Everytime i do anything even moving my chair they will mock me for no reason Basically my whole time in highschool is simply staying in my chair not moving so they won't make fun of me They broke my confidence and self esteem And i became very insecure I was basically a joke in the class and whole school Even though that was 7 years ago and i kinda of improved i just still couldn't get over it and i wanna know why or how.
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