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Silicone gel
Self-Harm Recovery / by nothingjustnothing
Last post
 November 11th, 2023
...See more Guys is it true that silicone gel can help scars to fade away most of mine aren't that deep or big so I'm wondering if it's truly effective or just a scam
Lossing progress pls any advice
Eating Disorder Support / by nothingjustnothing
Last post
 November 11th, 2023
...See more Tw mentioning of calories  So hey again  I tired to recover I started eating whenever I'm hungry cooking etc.. I stayed like that for a while but sometimes I remember how *** I was and somehow miss these days or I feel pity over myself I don't know how to explain ugh do y'all feel the same sometimes? Anyways but recently I'm feeling like my weight is getting out of hand I'm feeling like I'm going to my disordered eating behaviours I'm eating less skipping meals drinking more coffee I know where this is going I'm loosing all my progress it's a matter of time before I go back again to under <edited for cal by KristenHR> cal diet and I hate it it's always few months of peace before going back to the spot of beginning   I'm afraid it'll be worse than last time (last time it gotten real bad in the years of my on/off situation like I started calories counting tracking my body measurements purging sh again after staying over 2years clean) I don't want it to get worse I don't know how to stop these thoughts I can't think positive about my body I can't convince myself that I'm normal I know it's bad for me I know it's drain all my energy I know I'm already skinny but I can't believe it  And since it's an on/off situation like months of restricted eating months of trying to recover + my awareness of my issue I think it's not that bad and I just wanna be a victim and suffer  Does anyone feel the same like it's not real bad since there's worse cases?
Some venting
Eating Disorder Support / by nothingjustnothing
Last post
 March 8th, 2023
...See more So hey So I've been having an issue with my body image for a long time (like 4-5 years ish) like.. I'm ashamed to say that but I crave to be skinnier when I see people who are skinny in an unhealthy way I feel really jealous of them sometimes I can ignore the urge to just stop eating & lose more weight (I eat and all but still think of the weight I'll gain & how I am a failure for not being able to do a simple thing even though I'm slim) and other times I just apply what I was thinking of ( some times I stop eating well from couples of days to around 2 months) last 2 days I started counting calories I was thinking of doing that for a long time but I did it I downloaded an app that helps me detect how many calories I have consumed and again not proud to say that but I felt so happy when I saw how much I consumed (around 800cal) like I'm hungry and always sleepy that may sound stupid af but I never thought of linking my poor diet to the fact that I'm always sleepy and can't do my work Which really affects my life like I waste a lot of time sleeping without getting my work done in time I try to convince myself to at least eat more temporary then go back to usual but oh well it didn't work. My obsession with being slim started sooo long ago I always think that being extremely skinny is the best I see people online I get jealous I got shamed a lot for just having thighs "all what you do it eating and growing them""can you stop eating like a cow" I *** have them I wish I could rip them apart look I know there are people who are struggling more I know there are more severe cases I know there are people that are dying from that I'm not claiming to suffer w lot ot anything I'm not seeking attention at all I just wanted to get that off my chest bc my eating habits r the least thing I'd talk to someone about Have a nice day ❤️
I'm a bit confused(+venting)
Eating Disorder Support / by nothingjustnothing
Last post
 February 21st, 2022
...See more Well I guess 2months ago I lost my appetite I started eating less sometimes a snack a day I used to feel so so hungry but seeing food or even thinking about it makes me feel disgusted and that lasted for a month then I went to a doctor he gave me some vitamins and iron compliments so I started eating 2 meals a day (small ones but better than nothing) But recently I started to feel guilt and shame whenever I eat well (more than the small meals I used to eat) I'm underweight but so scared of gaining weight at the same time and ofc that makes me so annoyed cause everytime I'm done with eating I start thinking of the weight that I'll gain cause of that
2 years and a couple of months
Self-Harm Recovery / by nothingjustnothing
Last post
 January 12th, 2022
...See more 😊 I didn't think that I'll be able to do that but... yeah all what lefts are scars
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