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meaculpa
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PathStep 6 Compassion hearts4,878 Forum posts67 Forum upvotes106 Current upvotes106 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2016 Member sinceOctober 13, 2015
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Like Mathematics and Bible study. I also study a lot of history and dabble in computer related stuff. ( Long list of other hobbies follows ....... some are in a state of hibernation while others may see the day from time to time.) Bird watching, gorging on good food till I throw up, cycling myself to the point of an exhaustion related NDE, ogling at shop wares, doodling, day dreaming and killing myself trying to be an adult when my true self is equivalent to that of a bubbly 9 year old. I have had a severe medical handicap since my childhood but that doesn't prevent me from being an eternal optimist. The handicap has now been resolved through a path-breaking herbal treatment.
Profile pic: A waterfall at 10,000 feet, encountered during a solitary mountain trek.
Recent forum posts
Solitary High Altitude Treks
Motivation & Accountability / by meaculpa
Last post
 June 3rd, 2016
...See more Hi, Coming from a fear of heights ( which I have conquered albeit slowly ), I always aimed to complete solitary treks in high altitude mountain passes ( which can be as narrow as a few inches wide ). Well, I did complete not one but several treks, ranging from 10,500 feet to 15000 feet. It was tough but not impossible and to add to the challenge I did come across yaks on these solitary treks and it was a revelation to watch the big beasts just jump over to rocky outcrops on these passes almost like trapeze artists, allowing me to pass.
Duathlon/Triathlon
Hobby Zone / by meaculpa
Last post
 November 20th, 2018
...See more I hope this will attract people who are starting outare already into duathlon/triathlon races. I have recently decided to switch to duathlons because I find it easier to handle than gruelling cross country marathon races. The cycling part is my favorite and I enjoy cycling over long distances. Please put in your experiences of duathlon/triathlons here. Happy cycling/running and swimming !
Footprints in the sand ... living alone
Depression Support / by meaculpa
Last post
 February 20th, 2016
...See more I have been living alone for nearly 20 years now, with brief stays with my family ( parents and kin ) in between. I would like to say that we all do matter and that we do impact others lives, although this may not be noticeable to us. I have always been a pathbreaker and although it's sometimes like a sore thumb sticking out, but people have come up to me and commended me for it ( after cutting me down initially ). We are all pathbreakers in our own little ways. People may not come up to us and share this. So, when we do leave this earthly abode there are footprints in the sand where we had walked. In short, we matter, everyone matters. My faith has helped me cope with loneliness a lot. I view every individual as a God created miracle. This also set my expectations right, in the sense that I do not envy others enjoying life with partners ( and kicking myself by comparing ), since every individual follows their own course of life. I avoid backbiters, gossipers, cussers and rude people as I have observed that these are BIG triggers in my life. By avoiding them, I can better cope with loneliness. The internet has been a BOON to me. I confess I would be left adrift without it. I can post/share my thoughts and try and help others. Best part ? I can mute trolls. Doesn't happen in real life. Hobbies have also helped me cope. Hope this helps somewhat. :)
Running -- It helped me cope with a growing disability and depression
Hobby Zone / by meaculpa
Last post
 April 15th, 2016
...See more I don't know whether this can be classified as a hobby ? I mean running long distance as in 10k, half/full marathons. In any case it did help me avoid a life of disability due to knee injuries on both legs and associated depression. In 2003, I was speeding across a lonely stretch of road frequented by animals. The evening had just set in and visibility was low. I rammed into a big bison who had bounded on to the middle of the road and got thrown off resulting in several injuries which included two broken knees. Over an year or two, the knees went so bad that I could barely strain them without feeling excruciating pain. In the midst of despair and an onsetting depression, I chanced upon a Bible verse ( Isaiah 40:30-31 ) and had the craziest of inspiration to start running long distance. I was 35 ( in 2005 ) when I first started my initial walking stint, gradually extending it to long distance, then went on to light jogging and finally to running. It was very tough initially, but then a miracle happened, somewhere along the way, the knees stopped complaining and I started competing in 10K races, coming 4th in a state level 10K race ( that was my best so far ). The depression vanished along the way and my outlook picked up. I now find running exhilarating and liberating. It helps me sleep and keeps me fit. There were gaps in between due to injuries and illness but I have picked it up whenever I can. With age, I have mellowed it down a bit and I take care to listen to my body, but I have kept the feet working. :)
Broke the 10k barrier
Motivation & Accountability / by meaculpa
Last post
 January 31st, 2016
...See more I am proud of myself cause after an year and a half of recovering from back injury, multiple illness; I managed to complete my 10 Km. training run for a half marathon I am going to compete in. It was a big milestone for me.
*Trigger Warning* Haunted by Violent Deaths *Trigger Warning*
Trauma Support / by meaculpa
Last post
 January 1st, 2016
...See more Hi I am a Christian evangelist and mostly work amongst crime ridden poor neighborhoods. Many of the people I minister too are/have been violent offenders. I started when I was like 24 and my first friend and bro-in-Christ, a reformed hitman, was ( trigger warning ) brutally murdered. Let's call my friend Shak. There were some supernatural phenomena also -- like his bloodied and tattered likeness appearing in the night and wailing. Shak's people retaliated and dealt the same hand to his killers. Very soon I was on the run too to escape the violent spiral. The trauma haunted me for several years. I went into a vagabond preacher mode, living off the streets for almost 2-3 years. I would face deaths of people I minister too again, later on. However it was nothing like the shock that I felt at the death of my buddy Shak. Somehow, I have picked up the pieces over the years again and have started back, but I have developed this hermit like attitude. I also tend to live in extreme introvert-extrovert cycles. I can still see Shak from the eye of my memory tunnel and it becomes difficult to stop becoming teary eyed, even after 21 years of his passing away. Thanks for letting me vent.
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