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littlepeculiargirl
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PathStep 23 Compassion hearts22 Forum posts6 Forum upvotes7 Current upvotes7 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2023 Member sinceOctober 27, 2022
Bio

Little peculiar girl is my way of staying true to, and in acceptance of, my reputation as the quiet/weird/introverted/socially awkward girl Ive always been labeled as, yet despised.

I am considered an ‘adult survivor’ of child sexual abuse. Clinically diagnosed with MDD, PTSD and BPD. With additional OCD and panic disorder/anxiety disorder.

I generally like to keep to myself, it’s just easier that way than to mask my emotions or explain myself to others. But I’d say interests are reading, journaling, blogging, poetry and photography. 

I’m in a pretty intense part of my life at the moment, realising how debilitating my silent disability is, and although I’m quite self-aware and educated of why and how my brain works this way, due to stress my mental illness has began to take over my day-to-day with the people closest to me not understanding (or willing to) why I am programmed this way. 

Please feel free to message me, I’ve honestly socially withdrawn lately (which I know is rule number 1 of what not to do lol) but once I push past the initial social anxiety I’m very friendly and selfless.

More than happy to hear your stories in return or simply how your day is going x

Recent forum posts
Handwriting change
Personality Disorders Support / by littlepeculiargirl
Last post
October 29th, 2022
...See more I journal quite a bit and have for a while off and on (not online to be specific, merely a notebook and pen). I had stopped since being back at work/covid restrictions eased off, and picked it up again this year around March. I used to write very slow, in lowercase, rounded and large… however all of a sudden (almost quite literally a day apart) I must’ve started and lost track or didn’t notice that I now write fast/frantic almost, all in capitals, squared and small. I have done a bit of research on the net, has anyone else had this experience? And if so this sudden and drastic? Thanks x
Freeze trauma response
Trauma Support / by littlepeculiargirl
Last post
October 29th, 2022
...See more Lately I’ve been super stressed out, possibly the most stress I’ve been in my life. I understand how my past trauma and CPTSD works, but I can’t control my freeze response to any conflict at the moment. My boyfriend has pulled me up on it many times, but when we are fighting or have tension I can’t help but space out and freeze, and not help the situation Does anyone have any suggestions as to how they pull themselves out of the freeze response?
Audiotory hallucinations with CPTSD
Trauma Support / by littlepeculiargirl
Last post
December 29th, 2022
...See more Uh I’m a little too afraid to tell anyone about my experience In fact most people in my life don’t even know about my past trauma I was sexually abuse as a child for many many years by my grandfather. I’ve undergone therapy for years, got through a few things, was diagnosed with a few things also. PTSD being most prominent. I can’t discuss this with anyone in fear of them thinking I’m insane. Also it freaking me out a lot, and I’m scared it’ll happen again. I was walking down my street around 7.30PM and I heard a whisper right in my ears just “SHHHH” as I turn around no one’s there, I assume someone in the street, yet is happens 3 times as I’m speed walking down 1KM distance. Has anyone else experienced this? :s
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