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liquidfuse
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PathStep 22 Compassion hearts70 Forum posts141 Forum upvotes102 Current upvotes102 Age GroupAdult Last activeFebruary, 2024 Member sinceMay 31, 2021
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Update July 2021: Mental breakdown, felt darkness wrapped around me suffocating me to the point i had to call someone and i did! New here, the pandemic has really made me realize a lot of things but negatively impacting my depression.
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I’m Still Here
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by liquidfuse
Last post
 April 16th, 2022
...See more I have not let my mental health take over me like how i was last year. I feel more comfortable in my skin but still can’t live completely open as i want to. here is my poem for the day; I endure like the quiet of night, sinking into my own obliteration, obstinate and selfish how fondly i gaze upon my own edification of my own emasculation.
Dying Inside
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by liquidfuse
Last post
 October 27th, 2021
...See more I don’t know what to do or who to talk to i have no queer friends near and only recently found out directly some old friends are queer too. It warmed my heart to talk with them but i still feel so isolated and alone. My wife doesn’t understand i need friends who are like me or similar to me. I can’t relate to most of the people around me i feel like. I just want to be fully accepted flaws and all. I still feel like i am dying even after coming out. 😩😭
Doesnt Trust Me…Still
Relationship Stress / by liquidfuse
Last post
 October 6th, 2021
...See more So my wife still says she doesnt trust me even though my trust was broken over chatting and porn. I now realize this was all because of my bisexuality from really since my 20s but i was closeted for so long. My wife always knew i was into crossdressing, initially i fetishized it but really i think a male should be able to feel sexy in lingerie if he wants to and i do. Before it was more out of humiliation. I am telling you all this to give some framing to our relationship and so you understand what i am going through and what i should do. Ever since we started dating I was upfront about my experiences however few they were, i admitted to her that i had with both sexes this is back on our first date in 2012. Fast forward to years together, we marry in 2017, and go through so many ups and downs in our relationship. I hurt her emotionally but i never hooked up with anyone because i didnt want to dishonor her that way. She is already hurt so much by the porn and chatting with other people that anytime im on my phone and tapping she questions me. It gets old but i asked her if she doesnt trust me then why stay married to me. Shes goes to say its not like she has any options. I get upset and say and i do. long-term i don’t how much longer this will last but has anyone seen a shift or change once coming out to their spouse? Its only been 3 months since i told her i am bi and queer. So i am trying to give her time to process and understand and if she doesnt then maybe its time to move on?!??
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