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lalabrowni
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PathStep 327 Compassion hearts89 Forum posts21 Forum upvotes15 Current upvotes15 Age GroupAdult Last activeMarch, 2023 Member sinceOctober 17, 2021
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I hope find answer
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by lalabrowni
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 May 17th, 2022
...See more Can pmdd and bipolar disorder presenting together?
Teach with bpd
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by lalabrowni
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 April 21st, 2022
...See more I got a chance to teach again after several resignations, I love teaching but I'm really afraid of myself, of tomorrow and many things, I don't want to feel like I'm weak, I'm worried, what if I teach kids wrongly or be angry coz my BP, what if I suddenly disappear, many many many things sound in my mind I can't stop it I don't know how to deal with it
A bipolar poet
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by lalabrowni
Last post
 January 26th, 2022
...See more Every time I've tried to fight and win in my war I lose, I'm speechless and I've a smiling face, I made from my unseen tears and my words poems... I wish one day I can win... . . I hear more than one thousand million voices. Oh my brain, which one is the best choice? Shall I laugh or shall I fall asleep. Shall I slough myself or shall I keep. When I go to pray and have some peace. my mind did swear that it would kill me. Just like my ink tears, I screamed "please". Stop playing with my thoughts, leave me. Oh my lord have mercy on me I'm dying alone. Oh God forgive me for my unbelievable thoughts. I was uncontrollable. I'm wrong. I felt in my bones. But I'm not me, all my tryings come to nought. My lord, I don't know which rak'a that I'm praying now. I was fighting myself to stand and read that verse again. I asked about something that would help somehow. Something will change my feelings, and will finish the pain. I was stopping as lost as a person could be. I heard a sound " this's your seventh prayer". Suddenly I smiled, that was my brain I see. Then I knew that I was the unknown slayer. .
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