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ivoryCat3815
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PathStep 9 Compassion hearts54 Forum posts8 Forum upvotes15 Current upvotes15 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2023 Member sinceOctober 3, 2022
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Dark thoughts
Depression Support / by ivoryCat3815
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 October 21st, 2022
...See more I’ve recently be feeling worse and worse, over the last year it’s definitely been worse than previously. I’m like 90% sure I’m depressed but not diagnosed. Anyways the point of this post is more about my thoughts. Lately I’ve been dreaming about death. And every so often I’ll just day dream and drift into thoughts about death. I have no feelings of suicide or feel suicidal. But the thoughts of suicide are getting more and more regular. To the point where when I think about it, I feel calm. I feel peace. In the dreams I’ll just feel better once my head just goes pitch black. That’s it. It’s the end. I don’t understand why I’m getting these thoughts. As I say I don’t feel suicidal I’m just thinking about it in day dreams and real dreams. I can’t control them. I don’t understand why I’m getting them or thinking about it during the day. And I don’t understand how something I don’t want gives me so much peace. Am I just really messed up, idk ?
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