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intellectualGrapefruit6085
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PathStep 116 Compassion hearts229 Forum posts50 Forum upvotes55 Current upvotes55 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2024 Member sinceJanuary 13, 2024
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Trying to rebound with a long distance addict ex. My only relationship. I miss him
Relationship Stress / by intellectualGrapefruit6085
Last post
 June 24th
...See more So i ended up so crazy that i asked a psychic about what's going on waiting for some relief and he said he has another girl. Now om feeling worse. Plus feeling worse o gave money. I couldn't control myself. I texted at 3am, he saw them and left me on seen, and the conversation was good, ot was pretty spicy and i can't believe he left that on seen. Now it's 6am. I can't. I feel bad i lost some money especially with my situation. I feel bad it made me feel worse. He has given me doubts but if i ask, im breaking down everything and if he confirms, my final exam is doomed. I just needed someone to talk to. Here it's lonely and im anxious. I basically have no family and friends. I tried to reach out to him, felt bad, paid for attention and felt worse. I need 24/7 psychologist. Im not okay since 4 years
No hope for me
Depression Support / by intellectualGrapefruit6085
Last post
 June 3rd
...See more Trauma is burning me. Mom's drinking and having three free days when she can drink all day. At my accommodation my trauma eats me alive. Im graduating and i have to get a job but i have to pick a city and both options are bad. It's hard to take care of myself and the household with my depression. Leave alone work and pay rent. Otherwise i have to bear mom and a city without friends and therapy. I'm so tired. Everyone else is progressing with life and i just suffer 24/7
Idk whether to go back home and admit defeat and live w my abusive mom or stay at uni city, find a job, live alone and struggle to take care of myself
20 & Over Community / by intellectualGrapefruit6085
Last post
 May 2nd
...See more When i finish with studies dad will stop paying my rent and I will have to either go home permanently or find a job and stay here permanently and im terrible at taking care of myself and live alone and on a tiny, dirty place but at home mom's drinking and worrying me. If i knew what im doing, i would know whether to stay here this week or go home. I don't even have water
My past is ruining my future
General Support / by intellectualGrapefruit6085
Last post
 May 4th
...See more I don't feel well here, living in a tiny ceiling room all alone, struggling to take care of it and myself, both in critical conditions. But if i return home, mom will start abusing me and triggering me. And soon dad will stop my child support and I will have to either live with mom and be treated like *** if im jobless or work here but i can't sleep at night because of ptsd
I can't adult. It's so lonely at 20+. Just my ptsd, nausea, sleepless nights, dad who left, drunk mom, potential partners want just physical
20 & Over Community / by intellectualGrapefruit6085
Last post
 May 9th
...See more Whatever i do i always wake up at 2am nauseous. I suffer with nausea since i was born. Dad really helped because he's a doctor but now he left. Mom's an option because i can sleep at home without feeling sick but she's not an option at the same time because she's drinking and having her own mental illness and makes me feel worse. I need to adult but im just alone and scared and nauseous at night and need dad or someone to hug me. I'm a big baby, i hate it, i need someone. But i have to adult. The option is getting a boyfriend but everyone i text with just wants one thing and leaves when they see i want to see if i can rely on them. I can't even function, i can't sleep or eat normally, how will i work so i can afford to live outside mom's house? Soon i graduate and dad will stop the child support
I realised i have nobody at 20+. It's just me, my ptsd, my parents' issue and guys who only want me for the physical
Relationship Stress / by intellectualGrapefruit6085
Last post
 June 4th
...See more I don't feel well. whatever i do to go to bed early i always wake up nauseous at the middle of the night, wanting someone around. my dad has a new house now and it hurts me i will never sleep in the same place as him ever. he's a doctor and always helped me when i was sick. since i was born i was nauseous. now my therapist said i want a boyfriend to replace my dad. i do feel comforted by men but then repulsed as they say it "you don't want to sleep with me, you only want to really sleep". I need to see if i can trust them. not risk my emotional and physical health for people who only care about the physical. so another night im alone. I actually never met anyone. it ends at texting as they see i have no intention and that I'm physically and mentally unwell. and need help as a human being
I'm lonely but too mentally ill to date. Plus i miss my ex but we're both not well enough to be together
Relationship Stress / by intellectualGrapefruit6085
Last post
 April 26th
...See more Idk what to do. Idk if i want a relationship or just someone to be there. Most ppl supporting me ended developing attraction towards me and i got used to these dynamics. Especially since i can't afford a real therapist. I went to therapy tho but nothing
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