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I don't know how to feel about this
Trauma Support / by honestpanda81
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 July 30th, 2021
...See more Everything feels wrong today. I'm nauseated Today, my classmate opened up how an older man had grabbed his hand to pull him into a toilet stall in a public toilet after staring at him creepily. My classmate had slapped the man and ran off. He said he was terrified and a little traumatised, and now he's scared to go into public toilets alone. Would you believe that all of his close friends laughed? I couldn't. I sat there trying to process what I'd just heard while several boys laughed and laughed I wish I'd said something. Instead I sat there in silence. What just happened? One of the boys even joked that my classmate had just gotten a haircut then, so he looked more like a young teen than a young adult. How is that supposed to be funny? You're telling me that there was an older man out there dragging young boys into toilets? Young boys If I could go back I would have told them. Some boys don't get to run away. Some boys aren't strong enough or tall enough to slap their aggressor away. Some kids don't escape. Some kids have to live with the violation for their entire lives. I would have reminded that boy who made that joke about his friend looking like a young teen that he had a little sister who was that age. Would it still be funny if she was the one who had been targetted? What about his youngest sister, who was in second grade? To him, it was just a hypothetical scenario, but to me it was reality. To me and millions of children around the world, this is what we were forced to go through. How could it possibly be funny? I'm grateful that my teacher gave us an opportunity to talk about this today. He'd started the conversation by sharing his friend's close encounter, and he'd encouraged us to scream and get help if anything like that ever happened to us. But I can't get over this sick, sick feeling. I know I'll never confront those boys, because that would mean revealing a secret I've already resolved to take to the grave. But is it enough to hope that one day things will change? No, no it isn't
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Learning to move on
Trauma Support / by honestpanda81
Last post
 September 1st, 2021
...See more I guess it's really time to let go. I can't change what happened, or what I remember. All there is left to do is heal
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My Recovery Journey
Self-Harm Recovery / by honestpanda81
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 April 28th, 2021
...See more Hi everyone! I'm Panda ❤️ I've been struggling with self-harm for 4 years now. I'm starting a little journal here to document my self-harm recovery journey because self-harm is something I've been struggling to think and talk about. I still feel a lot of shame because I'm still fighting those urges after so many years, but I think it's finally time for me to have an open heart-to-heart with myself. I'm posting here for the people out there who are struggling with self-harm too. You're not alone, and I hope this can help you with your own recovery journey 💜 I'll be talking about both my past struggles and my current ones, and I'll label them accordingly. Feel free to respond if you like, it'd feel nice to know we're walking through this together 💛
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