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honestOcean9487
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PathStep 97 Compassion hearts370 Forum posts38 Forum upvotes41 Current upvotes41 Age GroupAdult Last activeJanuary, 2022 Member sinceMarch 6, 2016
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Broke up two months ago, still maybe love him?
Relationship Stress / by honestOcean9487
Last post
 May 20th, 2017
...See more I broke up with my bf almost two months ago. We haven't talked since and I really wanted to be freinds with him. I don't know how to say this but life is lonely without another person. I miss him a lot. I miss the warmth of another human being beside me while I slept, no matter how hot i got lol. I pine for that. I want that again. I told him that I wasnt sure if i loved him anymore. We had been dating for almost seven months. I feel terrible that i may have broken off something real and meaninful to me and to him. I don't know how to put this, but i might want him back. I feel empty and lonely on so many levels without him. I guess i left him because I didnt want to end up hurting him...
Fat and feederism fetish
Relationship Stress / by honestOcean9487
Last post
 May 20th, 2017
...See more So, hey, I've had this fat fetish for a few years. And I don't think it's ruining my life, but it just perplexes my why I'm into it. For example, eating to the point of a food coma turns me on. Gaining a bit of weight turns me on. And fat guys turn me on. I can't really explain it, it just sort of happened over time. What bothers me about it is the fact that I can't seem to make sense of it, even to this day. When I was in high school, I ogled at one of our high school wrestlers, who somehow went from 185 lbs all the way to 325 lbs in something like two-three years. Seeing a guy that big and powerful looking just did something for me. He really opened my eyes to the world of gaining, where a person gains weight for sexual/self gratification. I guess I fall into the "gainer" category, since I've gained like sixty pounds since I started almost two years ago. My family is receptive of my gaining, but there are still issues. For example, my mother, stepfather, and little brother all went kayaking without me since there is a weight limit on the kayaks. I stayed home and watched the dogs. I still had fun without having to be around people, but I just have to admit, getting fat is a lonely journey. I really just wish that I knew more people that I could hang out with so that way I wasn't so lonely in this endeavor to get fat.
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