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I Told The Stars About You
Poetry / by gentleRaspberries5395
Last post
 September 3rd
...See more I wrote this for somebody that I cared deeply for whom was going through a difficult time. I TOLD THE STARS ABOUT YOU... And that maybe sometimes when you are looking up at the stars they may make you feel small. Please just take a look into my eyes I'll show you just how truly great you are. I walked in the rain and looked up at the stars and told them about you... How I wished you always knew your true value and worth, and how remarkably strong and intelligent and kind and beautiful you are. Then I looked up at the stars and saw you. I saw you battling to shine your light. Struggling to trust your own light so naturally bright, yet exhausted by a darkness that constantly tries to overpower you. You sometimes feel lost in the galaxy. Lost by this darkness. At times afraid, overwhelmed paralyzed, doubtful confused frozen small trapped and fading. And how I wish that you could just reach out let go and just be. Floating freely and brightly amongst the other stars. Right there in the peace and calmness and light where you can just be you... The you that I can see. Your story like a star, has fallen and risen so many times. Your resilience is incredible. Stronger than you may believe and more deserving than you may think. I Iooked up at the stars and told them about you... Then I saw your eyes looking back at me. I saw such beauty kindness and such sadness. And although I know right now this sadness is your truth and reality. I understand. I saw your pain tears fears questions and doubts, but I also saw your fire and strength, and as I do in your eyes smiling back at me even if just for a moment. Every vulnerability is a beautiful strength... I see you through it all. Then for a moment you are the only star I see because it's the most beautiful one in the night sky.  Your heart and soul and mind have been trampled on continously by someone who can't see or doesn't want to see your value your truth and strength... Your story. Some can't handle your incredible light. Some can't let you just shine freely, because you would outshine everyone. Outshine them  In that moment I wished I could reach up to hold you so close.... And then I'd let you go because you are your own person and deserve to feel free, controlled by nobody. Nobody's possession and prisoner. I would hold you and whisper that Iove you and then gently throw you back into the sky... Trusting and hoping that when you are ready you will come back down by will and choice. For you. Then one day look up to the sky and tell the stars about yourself... How someone who felt so broken and trapped became one of the most beautiful stars to come back down and take another chance. To live, love, dance and be happy again.
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Stormy waters
Poetry / by gentleRaspberries5395
Last post
 September 14th
...See more The waves are restless It's high tide tonight Swimming against the current No life jacket in sight Hands reaching out in the darkness Disoriented and confused My body still fighting Emotionally bruised Gasping for air Between Truth and lies Suffocating on what's reality Or his deceiving disguise This disguise which brings doubt Am I somehow to be blamed Bringing chaos to my mind Guilt tripped and ashamed. Logic and reason are tumbling Into deep Waters crashing in his game Trying to make me crazy My thoughts are taking strain It's like I Know how to swim And make it to shore Yet self doubt sets in And I don't remember anymore After all my fighting to survive There he Will stand Pretending to be this saviour And reach out this hand To rescue me from the places I swam  from to get away From his manipulation and insanity He begs me just to stay I began to identify the problem Like pollution in this sea But so much damage had been done To my own Sense of reality The waves remained restless Questioning the thoughts in my mind Self doubt pulled me back under As if my self confidence went blind Swimming against the current backwards Between nothing and maybe Feeling lost and confused And the beginning of crazy. My mind a battle ship Fighting a war He chips away at my boundries Until I can't fight him no more. Exhausted and depleted I make it back to shore I give in and reach out to his cold icy hand Ashamed and angry for letting him... Win once more.
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Frozen
Poetry / by gentleRaspberries5395
Last post
 September 3rd
...See more I'm frozen, paralyzed, silenced I want to scream, I want to move, I want these chains to melt away It feels like someone is holding their hand over my mouth, physically retraining me. Bounded by things I am too ashamed to speak of. I try to speak but nothing comes out.  Why? Why can't I just reach in and pull it out. Am I scared of myself or am I scared of what I'll remember... Though my nightmares remember. I cannot rest. If I could just let go for a moment, but I'm suffocating my my own fears and I blame nobody but myself. Holding on so tightly to nothingness yet everything... I try to escape whilst minimizing my torment in fear of burdening the world with this chaos. I am exhausted. Fighting a war within myself, whilst living a silent war against him. Forever constant forever near.
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