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PathStep 15 Compassion hearts18 Forum posts6 Forum upvotes9 Current upvotes9 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2017 Member sinceApril 14, 2015
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I Feel Used
Relationship Stress / by foxtrots
Last post
 July 27th, 2015
...See more This year, I struggled a lot of different things. Whether it was in school or out of school, I never had a chance to relax and sit down because I was stressed out by all of the work I had. And no, I was not a freshman. I had an out of school activity that took up 95% of my life, not including school. Also, I had a realization about myself; I didn't trust anyone. And how crazy it sounds, I barely told anyone ANYTHING going on in my personal life. Not my best friends, not my parents. I chose to kept them bottled up in a corner in the back of my head. Some days I would just breakdown crying because of the urge to just tell someone. I you were wondering, I'm not official diagnosed with any disorder, however, I did take the 7 Cups of Tea Depression Test and scored for severe anxiety and stress, and moderate depression. Back story out of the way. At the end of the school year, I met someone who made me feel special and safe. Although I barely knew him, he knew how to help me deal with all of this. I thought, for maybe just a split second,it could be something special. He would always sprinkle little compliments like telling me I don't need makeup or I'm adorable. I could always expect a surprise hug from him. I once Skyped him late at night just talking about the emotional breakdown I had during the day. I thought I would get the same boring response of "It's ok", but he went on about how he would be giving me virtual hugs everyday. He said I was special. And for a moment, I thought we were special. About a month later, I was hanging out with a friend. Keep in mind, I continued to talk to him and even met up with him. Anyways, she's amazing, probably my best friend, so we tell each other everything. Well, almost everything. She began to tell me on how the guy I've been talking to dated her a few years ago and wants to get back together. Even to this day, he wants to get back together. At that moment, I felt used. Was he getting closer to me to get to my friend? Was this a way to make her jealous? I felt gross. I didn't feel special. Did he ever love me? Or did he never want to be alone? I haven't talked to him since.
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