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forcefulFriend4768
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PathStep 87 Compassion hearts71 Forum posts73 Forum upvotes91 Current upvotes91 Age GroupAdult Last activeMarch, 2022 Member sinceJanuary 19, 2022
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I am on a journey to heal my inner child. To heal my trauma. Everyday I am becoming a better version on myself. I enjoy the outdoors. It gives me space to breathe. I have 2 beautiful daughters, 5 grandchildren and 2 great grandchildren. They bring me joy and are my reason for living each to day to it’s fullest potential. I also enjoy reading and doing some crafts in my spare time. I’m a great listener and have been told I have empath abilities. So, I’m super sensitive to others pains and emotions. 


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Fixing everyone
50 & Over Community / by forcefulFriend4768
Last post
 February 11th, 2022
...See more I have this horrible habit of trying to fix everyone at the expense of not ignoring myself. I am a nurturing person, a caregiver and have been since I was 7 years old. I pretty much guess thst why I went into Healthcare. But, eventually I got burned out… when it became about money and not patient care. I then became a caregiver for my aging in laws and my father in law recently passed. So, now when I figure out how I’m going to heal myself, I will return home to care for my mother in law. But, I need to stay on track with my mental health and my needs as well. So, I guess my question here is… Where do I find balance, and how do I stop trying to fix everyone else? 🤷‍♀️ Does anyone here have any ideas? Has anyone been in this situation? It has affected my social life, my family dynamics, and my mental health. I can’t fix people when I’m broken 😞 myself.
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New to the Community
50 & Over Community / by forcefulFriend4768
Last post
 January 26th, 2022
...See more Hello all! I’m soon to be 61years young next month, suffer from GAD, PTSD, Grief, some compulsory behaviors, and I’m trying to get my mental health under control for myself. i have finally decided at this season in my life, it’s time to heal. However painful it maybe, it has to be done. So, I found this wonderful site, 7 cups, to help me along in this journey. I feel it’s a safe place to talk with others and not be judged. And knowing that help is out there… well , that’s a bonus! Looking forward to getting to know you!
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Loss,PTSD, Childhood Trauma
Trauma Support / by forcefulFriend4768
Last post
 October 22nd, 2022
...See more Hello… I am opening wounds here. I am sharing some pretty hard sh**. I know we all have a story to tell and some are harder than others. I’ve suffered much loss in my life. I lost my mother at age 6, she died before my eyes. They came and took her away one day and I never saw again. Left all alone, with no understanding of what occurred I was sexually abused by the man who was left to care for me. After a couple of days, my uncle came and got me and I was sent to live with different relatives. I attempted my first suicide at age 7 again at age 8. I just wanted to be with my mom. No one wanted me, I was just pushed around from home to home. I was sent to Florida at age 11 to live with an uncle and aunt, my Fathers bother and their young son. Drug addicts, I learned at an early age how to cook, clean and pick up hypodermic needle’s off the floor. So many years of methadone clinics, being shot at by cops, having the house surrounded by DEA, and ATF. Such a great childhood… I was a teenage alcoholic by the time I was 16. Trying to escape the pain. My aunt left us one day, she had enough. Now I was the woman of the house. Anyway long story short, I’ve attempted suicide 5 more times , been in more mental facilities than I care to think about. I lost the one love of my life 32 years to a tragic accident. He went to work one night, and never came home. Left me with 2 little girls, ages 71/2 and 8 months at the time. It was all downhill after that. So, yeah this is just a small portion of the story. I could write a book I suppose. Things trigger me very easily. Sights, sounds smells and certain songs. I also just lost my biological father to COVID in October of 2021 but he was lost in his mind a few years ago. All I have left is my 2 beautiful girls and the blessings of grandchildren and two great grandchildren. And my mother-in-law. Now I have all of you… my friends here at 7 cups. A place where I feel safe and can be open and honest and feel loved 🥰. Thank you for letting me able to share.
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Too many traumas … where do I begin?
Trauma Support / by forcefulFriend4768
Last post
 January 22nd, 2022
...See more I’ve been traumatized since watching my pass away before my eyes at age 6, but I can remember things before before then. Even as a baby standing in my crib. Probably age 2… I’ve been through sexual, verbal and physical abuse all of my young and adolescent life. My inner child screams for help! I have tried to commit suicide more times than I care to think about. Been in and out of numerous mental institutions, rehab facilities all to no avail. I’ve never fully healed my traumas. I am anxious, compulsive and yet no longer depressed, but my demons don’t stop. Where do I go? Where do I start? I feel like I’m going around in circles and can’t stop. Most days I am high functioning and do well but, I’m only fooling myself. I need help desperately.
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