I've always try to connect with people with whom I and we could share, understand, be benevolent and bring sweetness in a mutual way in our lives.

I'm a mom of 25 years old of an unspeakable baby with just some words, as her brightness lightens in all directions simultaneously. It would be so insufficient limit myself saying she's wonderful, she's terribly funny, she's so active, that she makes us melt with any little ways she has to express herself, to move, to look, to smile at any unexpected thing or to get so excited when she sees her dad or myself appears.

She was born in a big village at 2100 meters above the sea, in the poorest State from Mexico, and where so many births take place, from locals as from foreigners that came here to give birth naturally, guided by the ancestral practices of midwives.

Lilas, this is the name I thought about, and it convinced my partner.

In Spanish, people mostly think about the colour, but in French this is both the tree and its flowers. We got two Lilas at my mom's home, and I always love them. It's flowers is so big, but itself made of countless tiny flowers. Once, the trees blossomed while it was snowing, and that image was captured, to remember the unexpected beauty of Mother Earth, de nuestra Madre Tierra.

This is the beautiful and happy aspect I would like to be able to fully live. From my personal part, I'm currently at the lowest level of my life. The arrival of Lilas has been a big revelation about all the troubles and that damaging ill-being I have been carrying with myself for so long time. Depression, anxiety, eating disorder (in particular overeating), neurodivergence, hyperempathy, attention deficit disorder, bordeline deficit disorder has been so much category I haven't been diagnosed for but in which I can find myself, in order to try and begin to understand why it's ruining my life.

I know I need serious help, to understand better how I function and what could be the "strategies" that would be helpful and meaningful for me. I've tried for so long time to be "mentally and physically balanced" and work my "discipline" but I realized these words are part of the whole self development market that can make people feel worst about themselves and even more lost and alone than they already feel.

I hope finding nice people here to share about our lives and get emotional support