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etharislight
770 M Little Steps
PathStep 64 Compassion hearts39 Forum posts30 Forum upvotes28 Current upvotes28 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2023 Member sinceJanuary 18, 2022
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I like tea and big hoodies for comfort ~ 

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Trust issues
Depression Support / by etharislight
Last post
 March 30th, 2022
...See more tw (please watch out for yourselves) going in the direction of going insane, suicidal thoughts My partner, the person I trust the most in the entire world, told their sister something which I was definitely not ok with They didn't do it on purpose and they feel really bad for it now and apologized a million times But it still leaves me feeling incredibly anxious, scared, vulnerable, seriously uncomfortable, hurt.... really hurt I don't know if I can trust them anymore, especially because it was about something that I have never entrusted anyone in my entire life with I'm really lost and scared and I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm standing on th edge, about to loose my sanity completely. It's so freaking hard to do life every single day. I am so lost, I don't know what to do. I'm scared. Everything's really overwhelming
Close to relapsing tw
Self-Harm Recovery / by etharislight
Last post
 March 29th, 2022
...See more Heyy, I feel really stupid. I have a self harm addiction and am easily triggered. Today I was in a really weird/bad mindset where my thoughts were all over the place. A person close to me had a panic attack today and when they told me, I handled it completely wrong. My mental health is pretty bad at the moment and I can't really take other people doing bad. One thing led to another and for some stupid reason I asked about their self harm, which was months ago but I asked. They told me where they self harmed. And that triggered me immensely, especially cause the urge to sh there has been with me for a really long time. The urge to self harm is really bad right now. Everything hurts like hell. I just needed someone to know
Missing it
Self-Harm Recovery / by etharislight
Last post
 March 14th, 2022
...See more Heyy, tw here. Please watch out for yourself ~ I've been clean for ten days now. More than I have ever managed before. But it doesn't feel like an accomplishment, quite the opposite actually. The more time passes, the more it feels like failure and the more I miss it. And the more time passes the more I want to do it again. I really miss it and that feels weird - to say the least. It's not really something I expected to feel. I don't know, I thought maybe someone here feels the same way as I do
Confusion
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by etharislight
Last post
 January 25th, 2022
...See more Heyy guys, So I'm ace, pretty sure of that But then I get confused. Because like I don't get the heart racing feeling, or the feelings of butterflies in my stomach. Like that's romantic attraction right? And I don't get that... Does getting happy around a person and feeling incredibly safe also count to romantic attraction? I'm probably overthinking this Does anyone have any thoughts on this? ~Liks
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Self-Harm Recovery / by etharislight
Last post
 March 3rd, 2022
...See more TW self harm and scars/marks Heyy, I'm new here and I don't know if I'm doing this right but I'm trying Self harm has been part of my life for quite a while But in the past few months it got a lot worse and by now honestly it's an addiction Part of me really wants to have scars or visible marks that last I am not one to scar easily so whatever marks there are, they fade pretty fast I know that wanting scars is stupid, they could trigger someone.... But I still want them It's like they validate what I'm feeling on the inside, like I have something to show for it Idk my brain keeps comparing them to battle scars I want scars to remind me of what I've been through (I'm a person that easily forgets or downplayes bad times) And also so many people have scars from that I get scared when the marks start to fade, because it's like they were never there, like all those bad moments never happened and then the urge to do something comes back again Any thoughts? ~Liks (I seriously hope I did this right)
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