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enigmaticButterfly8052
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Number of ratings16 Number of reviews10 Listens toOver 18 LanguagesEnglish Listener sinceNov 2, 2021 Last activeover 6 months ago GenderFemale PathStep 58 People helped107 Chats247 Listener group chats3 Forum posts49 Forum upvotes70
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My name is Lana. I am 16! I am here to talk to you if you need to and I am always looking to listen to what people have to say. I am bisexual so I know how coming out and having to deal with homophobic people is like. I am able to help with a lot of things because I have been through a lot and it has helped me to be a better person and be who I am today. I hope that when we talk you see me as a friend and that I help you because that is my goal. To help you no matter what you are going through. Remember that you are loved and are beautiful!❤️😘 Also I am taken by an amazing guy who I am excited to grow with.😘❤️🙈


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General Support / by enigmaticButterfly8052
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 October 27th, 2022
...See more I am here. That is what counts. I have lost so many people and to be here is a blessing in itself. I hate the fact that I got to live on when they didn't. I hate that they aren't here to cheer me on. I hate that she didn't get to grow up and go to middle school. I hate that she was taken from us when all she did was spend her time helping others. I hate that the world is unfair. I hate the way people treat others that don't "fit in". I hate that they judge you just because of the color of your skin. We need a change. People think that everything is alright. They think that what you say can't hurt someone else. Stuff hurts a lot actually. Times get difficult and we all deal with them in our own ways. I don't handle my stuff too well but I am still here to make a change and to help out. Opening up to people is extremely hard and I respect every single person here that has the courage to tell someone that they don't know what they are going through. We all have tough times and we all struggle with something. It just shows a lot about you that you can come out here and tell people and let them tell you what they think about it and what you should try to do. I respect all of you and I hope you have an amazing time. Being here is one of the things that I am most thankful for because I get to live on and live for the people that I have lost. It is an honor to be there tether or string to this world. I miss them but being here to support everyone and to live life for them is more than I could ever say. Remember to tell the people that you love that you love them because having them here is everything. I cannot tell you what I would do to get the people I lost back. So just let them know how you feel and how much they really mean to you.
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Journals & Diaries / by enigmaticButterfly8052
Last post
 September 27th, 2022
...See more Things were going pretty good and now tbh I have no clue where they are going. I thought that if I pushed her out of my head and acted like I was moving on then the pain would go away and stop being so strong. But lately it is just getting worse. Everyday gets a little harder to fight and to continue trying to be strong when all I want to do is give up. I see her all the time. She ignores me and so does he. It's like no matter where I go I am disappointing someone. At home, at school, and just everywhere. I disappoint myself because I know I could be doing better and I know I could fight harder to get what it is that I am trying to get. I could have fought for him and kept going even though I was scared of my feelings but I didn't. I chose the safe route and hid from my feelings by shutting him out and breaking up with him. I let my past take hold of my future and now I feel lost. On the same day I lost the girl of my dreams. Me and her have been on and off for like a year and I had finally told her how I truly felt and owned up to my mistakes but it was too late. She already had someone else to make her happy. Without her I feel like I am drowning with no way up for breath. I am trying to get out on my own and make a meaning fro myself. I am almost 18 and I am trying to get my life together but it is so hard. Trying to find a job is stressful, getting a license is draining, and trying to find a cheap apartment with a way to get to school is emotionally and physically exhausting. I feel like no matter what I do I am never going to be able to pull myself together and that I am always going to be stuck in a bad place. Nothing seems to work anymore so I just numb it all. I know that isn't the right decision but what else is there to do when all I am doing right now is failing everyone and everything. The fight goes on and on and on but all I want is for it to stop. I want the pounding and the pain to go away. I want all the disappointment to just leave me alone. But most of all I want to be enough. I want to be enough for someone. I scream and scream but no one seems to hear me. I cry but nothing even bothers me. I am numb at this point. I no longer feel things that I know I should. But hey I am just a teenager right? I don't know what love is, I don't know what pain is, I don't know what stress is, and I don't know when I am about to give up. With all the things that has happened to me you think the pain would be easier by now but tbh it gets worse to the point to where you can't feel a thing. But it's alright. Everything is going to be just fine. I am going to be just fine. Always having to be the positive one that listens to all my friends and helps them out. Never getting a break to just be me for a while. No feelings are what I have at this point. But I'll get through it, I always do.
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