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Is it okay if i vent my honest feelings about being trans? Im just lost.
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by easyTown5832
Last post
 September 23rd, 2021
...See more Possible tw as my text could potentially trigger someone elses dysphoria You can call it internalised transphobia, or denial or what not, but Dysphoria is eating me away and if I could just be cis I really would. Ive struggled with gender issues nearly all of my life now . I honestly dont think im financially well enough to afford moving out of my conservative country, take hrt/surgery or it would take me years at least and im not sure if I have the strength to go on. I dont really believe people take me seriously when it comes to my gender Dysphoria. I know deep down that my genes will always say im female no matter what i do and it makes me feel hopeless. If i could learn to accept that I was born this way, and just live as a queer cis girl or something life would be so much easier. Ive even had a therapist try to "convert" me. Its like im cursed. I want to be like one of those detrans people whose Dysphoria stems from other issues and when they deal with them the Dysphoria lessens. The idea that im born trans is supposed to comfort me and affirm me but it makes me depressed because it means im forever going to feel this way, people will treat me differently and if i dont get to transition it means ill forever stay miserable. Yet, the thought of trying to live as a girl, having the body of one is just not right and it slowly kills me! The main way im surviving in this world is by dissociation and distractions. Maybe i should try conversion therapy and free myself from this hell, maybe im not trans at all right? Or Maybe im just gaslighting myself... I wish I was just normal. This is a cry for help i guess. I doubt ill get many responses even if I try to format this into paragraphs. If by chance someone reads and responds, you have my thanks.
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Self-Harm Recovery / by easyTown5832
Last post
 August 19th, 2021
...See more Hello everyone, I am a new member here. Just some lonesome guy who has suffered in life, the road is though. There's depression, lonlines, anger, grief, pain, etc... Ups and downs, I have been struggling with self harm for years now, even broke a 6 month streak that I am still rebuilding atm, the road isn't linear but I've come far. I know there might be downs coming my way, but despite everything I haven't given up. I have even learned to accept my scars for what they are. We might have different experiences, origina, identities etc... yet we all had a similar reaction to them. Just know that no matter how alone you feel there is someone out there who cares for you, there is always a community out there to reach out to. We might be countries apart but we still can talk to and support one another. I know I am not the best, I will fail, I am only human, but seeing you all try makes me want to try as well. Sincerely, just a random egyptian on this site named Selim
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