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decisiveRaspberries7625
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TW: Rape victim looking for rough sex
Relationship Stress / by decisiveRaspberries7625
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 August 10th, 2018
...See more I'm a middle aged married man with two near adult children. In '05 I lived through three months where I was confined with two men who raped me daily along with physical and mental abuse. I'm now trying to accept that I'm bisexual. My wife knows and supports me. I've had sex with men and I play the role as a (sissy bottom). I've since found a man that is Dom and supports my desire to be a sissy and talked down to. Our sex is alot like the rapes now he wants to urinate on me. My problem is how I feel afterwards. I feel like I deserve the abuse and the treatment he gives me. I don't feel like a real man. Before the sex I (want) the abuse....but after I feel like I'm even more worthless and hate myself even more. It's easy to say to stop the rough sex but I'm hooked on the things he does to me and makes me do. I feel like after the rapes I'm not a real man. It has gotten to the point where I wear women's underwear. Please be nice in your reply.......thank u [MonBon added trigger warning]
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