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damchu90
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PathStep 3 Compassion hearts6 Forum posts2 Forum upvotes5 Current upvotes5 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2015 Member sinceOctober 27, 2015
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im sorry
Relationship Stress / by damchu90
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November 28th, 2015
...See more Dear family, Im sorry for not being the person you need or the one you want. I know I grew up to be something else I guess. I'm coward, stupid, useless. I know I am a burden too you. I'm sorry for not being able to help you now, I know I made you waste tons of money on my education for nothing. I wish I could tell how hard it is for me to deal with this weight of not being good enough, of not being the daughter you were expecting. I have never been the person you expected. The one helping you through this hell we've been through. God, I know im sorry. I wish I could tell you my feelings, without feeling you are going to judge me. I dont know how to live, how do you live? I wish I was normal, I wish I wasnt scared of everything, but i am. I need more than just "pray" I need help, I need a hug. I need you to tell me everything will get better even if is not. I need you to understand. I'm in hell right now. I am slowly dying and you dont even know. I want to die and you dont even know. And you make everything worse. I know I am not the person you want, the one you wish I were and im sorry. I wish I could just go out to the world, find a job make tons of money and repay you but IM SO SCARED OF THE WORLD. and you dont understand! I need you to help me and you are not there. im sorry, im so sorry for not being a good daughter, for not being a good sister. im sorry.
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