Hi, I'm 23 Trans Male and Queer. I'm engaged but struggling a bit with my relationship. I deal with undiagnosed chronic pain and am still going through tests. I have severe nerve pain, non-epileptic seizures, and my muscles twitch and spasm a lot. I also deal with PTSD, OCD, Anxiety (general and social), Agoraphobia, Insomnia, ADHD, and I am not diagnosed but in the process or attempting to get a diagnose for DID (I black out a lot and have had people and a therapist tell me to get tested), Nightmare Disorder, and BPD (I have had a therapist and people tell me to get checked for it) I was misdiagnosed BPD because my mother answered all the questions for me. I suffer from some delusions that impact my daily life.

On the positive side, I am a creative writing major. I like anime, games, and books. I spend a lot of time escaping into them. I am also Heathen (basically Norse Pagan) and wish I could connect more with that stuff. I'm currently fixated on Paradox Live, Genshin Impact, and Xianxia light novels and manhua. 

I struggle a lot with guilt, reality issues, and my chronic pain. It has bled over into other aspects of my life and makes it hard to deal with daily activities. I am in the process of getting a new licensed therapist and psych but it takes a while. I'm here to find community with people who have similar problems and work on coping skills. I am not good at doing things on my own, so I hope being here will help me hold myself accountable.