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cresentrose2811
2,130 M Hopeful Heart 3
Broken but healing
PathStep 187 Compassion hearts141 Forum posts42 Forum upvotes63 Current upvotes63 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2024 Member sinceJanuary 21, 2018
Bio

I'm Eli, Im 21. (he/they). Bi and non binary because i refuse to make decisions, jk, i just like a lot of things and identify with a lot of things. Currently engaged. love video games such as stardew valley and board games such as dnd and i am convinced i would be lost on how to spend my time with out tv. I reaallly love mac n cheese. if i could marry it and have an endless supply i probably would. 



Recent forum posts
weight
Poetry / by cresentrose2811
Last post
June 28th
...See more Weight.  such a sensitive topic. one wrong move and things become chaotic. especially for those who lie in between. the ones who are told not to loose weight but struggle to fit their jeans. their fat friends say to gain some meat. their skinny friends say a diet will make you complete. always stuck between yes and no analyzing themselves from head to toe. little did the friends know the dysmorphia they cause. If only they had put their comments on pause.  maybe you wouldn't be stuck between side. All of those tears you wouldn't have cried. Your body is perfect no matter your weight. fat or skinny does not need to be a debate.
A poem I wrote
Poetry / by cresentrose2811
Last post
May 5th
...See more Another day, another voice Another day, another choice. The choice to stay or the choice to go.  To loose myself, or loose the only love I know. You told me that you cannot loose me. But with you, myself is not someone I can be.  I love you more than you'll ever know. But staying here, I cannot grow. 
Potentially on the Asexual Spectrum????
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by cresentrose2811
Last post
April 24th
...See more I have recently realized that I think I am on the asexual spectrum. I think I have known it for a long time now but I have always suppressed the idea of it because the definition of it I was finding only seemed half accurate plus a previous partner of mine very much helped convince me I wasn't because of how much we... Interacted... With each other in that way.  I have never had an issue with having sex in general. I even used to enjoy it more often than not. Granted I was younger and very hormonal at that time and age.  Now I am 21 and sex seems amazing and fun in theory and in thought but in application it is just annoying and rarely pleasureable.  I started researching this and found the term: Aegosexual which refers to people who. experience a disconnect between themselves and the topic of arousal.  I am still not 100% sure if this right for me but finding the term at least gave me what I needed to be able to explain how I have been feeling to my partner. 
Healthy Boundaries
Relationship Stress / by cresentrose2811
Last post
April 2nd
...See more 🛑🛑🛑❕❕❕TRIGGER WARNING: MENTION OF SEXUAL ASSAULT/TRAUMA❕❕❕🛑🛑🛑 My partner and I have been struggling with sexual boundaries. He is often in the mood when I am not and can be kinda pushy and overwhelming at times about wanting it. He has never forced or pressured me into doing things I don't want to but I have been with people who have. It gets very hard and confusing to set healthy boundaries with this because it can be triggering at times when he starts being pushy. When I do set boundaries in this context they often get pushed and it makes me feel like I can't trust him. He has been through similar trauma and has his own boundaries that I respect but I don't always feel like that is reciprocated. I have tried telling him this before but he doesn't even realize what he is doing and prides himself on how respectful he is. When I have tried to correct him and tell him how what he is doing pushed my boundaries he gets defensive and tries to make comparisons to times that I have unknowningly crossed boundaries that he never actual communicated and those situations have already been rectified/dealt with.
Nicotine Addiction
Addiction Support / by cresentrose2811
Last post
March 19th
...See more I have been wanting to quit vaping for awhile but I am struggling with starting that process. Some of my biggest fears with it is that I am not going to be able to cope with stress and I that people are not going to enjoy my company as much because of that. Any advice is welcome and appreciated 
Therapy
Relationship Stress / by cresentrose2811
Last post
March 13th
...See more My partner and I have been on the verge of breaking up and have been struggling with physical and emotional compatibility. He has agreed to start going to therapy which makes me hopeful. I am a bit worried that things will get better for a short but then go back to how they have been recently but I am trying to remain optimistic.
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