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chamomileteabag
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PathStep 7 Compassion hearts207 Forum posts11 Forum upvotes13 Current upvotes13 Age GroupAdult Last activeFebruary, 2024 Member sinceJanuary 9, 2021
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Coming to terms with loosing my vision
Disability Support / by chamomileteabag
Last post
 May 31st, 2022
...See more I was born with a degenerative eye disease, which I’ve been told is rare since it usually occurs for people over 50 however it runs strongly within my genetics and unfortunately that’s what I’ve got. My parents first noticed something was wrong when I wasn’t learning motor skills as fast as the other kids because I wouldn’t match shapes up correctly so they took me to the optition and I got diagnosed with an array of different eye problems. Ever since I’ve been wearing pretty strong glasses however my prescription as part of the degeneration gets 2x worse each year. This has slowed as I’ve come out of my development years (18) however I’m now coming to terms with the fact it’s never going to stop and I will become blind one day. Most likely before 50 years of age. My eyesight is already starting to become disabling, I cannot read anything without holding it within an inch of my face and I’ve had to apply for special accommodations in school. I would really like to travel the world and see all its wonders before I go blind, and I’m very lucky to still have the vision I do have for aslong as I’ve had it so far. However I can’t help but feel worried for the future and how it might take over my life.
Constant triggers are making me feel numb
Trauma Support / by chamomileteabag
Last post
 June 13th, 2022
...See more I have experienced sexual assault before when I was on a train at 14 and someone groped me as I was leaving, and I didn’t see who it was. Again on a train I was pressed forcefully against a old fat man and instead of moving out the way he stood there while I couldn’t go anywhere. I’ve also experienced a considerable amount of secondary trauma, my best friend was raped by one of my friends and ex crushes. The media has taken over my mind with sexual assault stories and violence. Im asexual, my friend a year ago confessed his love for me and It triggered all of this trauma to just rise from the depths. I was horrified by the idea that he thinks of me in a sexual way, and he’s even commented on my boobs before. He’s not really done much wrong, but I hate him and I feel bad for hating him it’s just that he triggers me so much and he’s in my class. Im moving away this summer and I will never see him again but im afraid this will continue and I will continue to get triggered by all men. i get triggered even more and to a greater frequency when im stressed and im going through finals right now. I just feel numb, I hate that im so afraid of being raped, I hate that the world is like this. Im so afraid of men, I feel so scared that maybe I can never fall in love again. Maybe I will never feel attraction again. I feel like I have been broken by the people around me and I don’t know how to put the pieces back together again. I don’t know what to do.
Triggers at school, help! :(
Trauma Support / by chamomileteabag
Last post
 January 8th, 2022
...See more TW; Sex & sexual assault (only lightly mentioned) hello! I’m really really nervous for school again after the holidays, it starts in 3 hours. I’ve been really happy all holidays because I havnt had to deal with all of the triggers that it brings. I was sexually assulted and people talking or making jokes about sex can sometimes send me into an overthinking and panic state. I’ll be surrounded by other teenagers, all they think about is sex. Is there a way I can try and control my panic episodes when a trigger comes up?
Recovering from ED but scared of relapse :(
Eating Disorder Support / by chamomileteabag
Last post
 December 22nd, 2021
...See more I’m recovering from an eating disorder and a horrid fear of gaining weight. I’ve had some really big milestones this year like finally feeling neutral with my body. I don’t like it but I don’t hate it and that’s a big step for me. Christmas time has rolled around now though and I’m getting loads of anxiety over it, it’s a holiday all about food and big meals and mostly junk food and being stuck alone in your room with your own thoughts. I’m not looking that forward too it. I’m really scared that all of my fear foods will start triggering me again and I’ll relapse into my old ways because of one religious holiday. I had a burger the other night (it’s one of the foods I spent so long trying to not be afraid of) and even though I only have them once every few months I still felt sick after taking one bite and getting really nervous. I just want to celebrate Christmas traditions like everybody else and help cook and prepare nice food but all I can do Is disappoint my family when they cook a large meal and I hardly eat anything :( it would be really nice if I could get any advice or just know that other people struggle with this too, I just want to know I’m not alone.
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