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Relationship Stress / by bertnayb
Last post
 April 11th, 2022
...See more He broke up with me again. A few months ago he kicked me out and we got back together. Today i fell because i went to lean on the freezer to get into the fridge and the freezer was slightly open so i fell forward into the fridge. I told him to please be careful and close the fridge doors. He followed me down to the workout room to scream at me until i cried. I told him i couldnt do this anymore and he told me he was forcing the relationship anyway. So. I'm locked in the guest bedroom until i have reinforcements. I havent eaten since 8am and dont plan on eating anything. I'm depressed and scared. After losing my fiance three years ago i wasnt looking to get into a relationship. He swept me off my feet we started dating i moved in and we were planning on getting married but his anger issues and making me cry all the time... i dont think its worth it. Love isnt worth it. I dont feel like anybody could ever love me. Nobody wants me. I'm not thin or pretty enough for him to stay.... im so depressed. Im so sad. I want to be loved so badly. It isnt fair. I took him to work every day. I did chores for his family while they were away. I make him lunch and dinner. I sleep with him even if i dont want to. I got him closer with his distant family and an old friend. We were out with them all just last night. I sent him a love letter this morning... and i get berated and abused.... for a mistake he made.... why is my life so bad.
just venting
Relationship Stress / by bertnayb
Last post
 February 18th, 2022
...See more It's really late. I'm sad and anxious and cant sleep. My boyfriend who i live with broke up a with me over the weekend and we got back together by the end of the weekend. It was a really tough weekend with lots of anger, screaming, crying, etc. right now, he's being standoffish. I went to send my mom a cute video on Facebook and he saw a guys name below her name and a few minutes later asked me who that guy was. I was like, a guy on Facebook. I dont know, I never met him, but we had mutual friends and blah blah. And then the jealous not talking to me or touching me or even so much as being friendly towards me starts. So, we're currently on opposite sides of the bed, facing away from each other because he's constantly mad that men exist in the world besides him. we've gotten in fights before over guys i havent talked to since even before he and i started our talking phase. He just cannot stand that anyone with a penis has spoken to me before. It really bothers me because I'm occasionally friendly with people of the opposite sex who I used to be friends with. I was messaging a guy a few weeks ago who I used to work with about how I moved away and he was telling me about his struggles with his restaurant he opened up and his place flooded, etc. but if he saw us messaging he would give me the cold shoulder for days until he eventually blows up yelling at me because i'm a whore or something. When I live in his house and dont leave unless its to see my parents. i dont know. I'm sick with anxiety about it. Starting to feel like this is abusive but if I say that... he'll break up with me again. :/
haven't been feeling like myself
Anxiety Support / by bertnayb
Last post
 October 25th
...See more I've been feeling so down about my appearance. I work really hard on my body and my skin. Spend hundreds of thousands of dollars on skincare. And I still get acne. I still dont have a teeny-tiny waist. I haven't felt pretty in such a long time. I'm tired of trying and getting nowhere.
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