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baldwinbabe
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PathStep 35 Compassion hearts30 Forum posts17 Forum upvotes20 Current upvotes20 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2016 Member sinceMay 26, 2015
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Depression Support / by baldwinbabe
Last post
 June 2nd, 2016
...See more So yeah I've finally gotten sick of trying to pretend anything is fine. So I was hoping anyone would know a good way to get depression medication without having it be obvious? Ideally without going to a doctor. .. my parents think I'm being childish and are not the most understanding or supportive when I try to talk about this. So yeah any advice? I'd listen to anything that'd help me out tbh even if it wasn't antidepressants - Im just sick of this. I want to be better already.
Listener who can put up with me....
General Support / by baldwinbabe
Last post
 May 12th, 2016
...See more Like idk, a long term listener I think. I'm a cynical asshole and a lot of the time I just want someone to listen and give some good advice? Or i don't know, just talk? Most of the time I end up getting ignored. I'm dealing with depression, self harm, and abuse I think.
stuck
Depression Support / by baldwinbabe
Last post
 January 12th, 2016
...See more I'm stuck and i know theres nowhere to go anymore. I'm 19 and i still share a room with two sisters, i live in a place so remote i take a 3 hour bus ride to a college for a course i hate. I have no way to get a job like this, I dont know what I'm going to do when i finish this year. I have no way to move out, i had to help my parents pay to mortgage, its impossible to pay for the crazy prices on rent. I get so depressed about this i cry myself to sleep most nights... I can just see everyone moving on, my friends all getting boyfriends and moving out, and im stuck here. What do i do? There's nothing... I've already tried killing myself, but it didn't work... i know its stupid of me to post this, my parents dont even listen to me or believe im depressed.
what's the point?
Depression Support / by baldwinbabe
Last post
 September 6th, 2015
...See more IDK and i shouldn't be posting this, i dont like "airing my dirt laundry" for anyone on the internet to see. and every time i feel depressed i just dont think i should be? like i have a pretty good life, better than most, but i still get this urge and weight telling me none of it's worth this. the other day my dad was complaining about this lady at work who took like a month off for sick leave because she was diagnosed with depression, and i was like "that's okay though, it makes sense..." and he was like "these people with 'depression' or whatever are just week- everyone else works hard and sticks it out, they're just stupid." like i could feel my gut wrenching, i've wanted to talk about it and get help for so long but its impossible for me. Sometimes i have fantasies about dieing, like if i got hit by a car, or if i just fell asleep and never woke up again, i would be okay with it. Like when i was reading If I Stay, (spoiler allert) i couldn't understand why she chose to stay??? i wish i could go, i wish i could just stop everything... do anti depressants even work?? i dont think they'd help anyway, ugh just tell me it's okay to kill myself. like maybe if i do it in a way that nobody would find my body it'll be okay? i just cant deal with all this stress anymore, i want to change, i want to live my life the way want but it's impossible... sorry for wasting your time
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