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PathStep 1 Compassion hearts13 Forum posts23 Forum upvotes16 Current upvotes16 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2023 Member sinceAugust 1, 2021
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4 AM Crisis
Depression Support / by acepionage
Last post
 March 8th, 2023
...See more Sometimes I feel like my life has no true meaning. I have all these ambitions and dreams but no matter what I try to pursue I always end up disappointing someone and myself because I’m too stupid to do anything generally right. I can’t ever seem to make any friendships as they never go past the surface level with basic small talk, so I spend most of my days studying by myself in my room with no real support system I can turn to.
Military
Trauma Support / by acepionage
Last post
 January 6th, 2022
...See more I just very recently got medically discharged from basic training - about two to three months ago. Since I've been back in civilian life, I'm finding it a lot harder to fall asleep every night cause of my experiences while I was in training. Sometimes the thoughts come randomly throughout the day and they linger there so long that I just want to drop what I'm doing and just pound my head until the thoughts stop. Is this a sign of anything concerning?
Old Heartbreak
Relationship Stress / by acepionage
Last post
 October 25th, 2021
...See more I was talking to this guy for a few months at work and we slowly started becoming friends. We were never officially together but we shared mutual romantic interest in one another, at least I think that was the case. One night he took me out somewhere and paid for my food, then we proceeded to hang out in his car for a bit before he had to leave. After that night, he started progressively becoming less respondent, and in the end, ghosted me. Nothing negative happened on that night either, we were laughing and goofing around the whole time. I've been extremely heartbroken over this because I thought I finally found someone who actually loved me. Did I do something wrong for him to ghost me because I'm lost on what happened.
Help
Eating Disorder Support / by acepionage
Last post
 August 9th, 2021
...See more Lately I've been getting obsessed over the number on the scale again. I feel the need to weigh myself every day and if the number is up a 1 lb or 2 my mind instantly starts thinking that I have to restrict food for the rest of the day/be calorie conscious. My roommates have been telling me that I'm stick-thin but when I look at myself in the mirror all I can see is how much more weight I have to lose in my thighs, face and overall body. I want to eat but I'm terrified of gaining weight because I was obese for most of my life. Is there a term for something like this? I think it might be anorexia but I feel bad labeling it as that because I don't have an outside opinion/medical diagnosis.
Confusion
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by acepionage
Last post
 August 15th, 2021
...See more So just for some backstory, I've only ever had one relationship in my life and that was over 6+ years ago in high school. During that relationship however, whenever he kissed me I felt nothing and didn't understand why he was putting his lips on mine. It felt unnecessary to me. Throughout the years I've been single and content, but recently I went on a date for the first time in awhile and after we ate the guy kissed me and I felt nothing again, the unnecessary feeling coming back again. Ever since that date I've been questioning whether or not I'm on the aromantic spectrum because though I like the general idea of romance and people being in love, every time it happens to me I want the person off of me. I basically feel like a walking contradiction because I know I want someone in my life. Is there anyone who can give me some insight on this? I know that it's up to me to identify myself but at this point it's tearing my mind apart and I'm in need of an outside perspective.
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