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Hello there fellow 7 cup people, my go bys on here are zero, I am a 17 year old female. I couldn't help but notice that people post there vents here so I think I'm gonna do the safe if you don't mind, not for people to read but for me to get this stuff off my chest, and be fair warned there is a lot... Gosh where would I even begin lol.
I guess for starters I should add context, I used to live with my grandmother, she was my guardian my biological parents abandoned me with her when I was only 2 months old. My grandmother was the abusive type of parent who when you did something wrong she would usually beat the crap out of you. I grew up with my sister who was also abandoned a little before I was.
I'm going to skip over the rest of my life story now and jump to some semi more recent events
About 3 years ago I ran away from my abusive grandmothers house to one of my friends thinking I was free but that was short lived, I was shortly found about 2 days after I left and was dragged back to my abusive grandmother's (we will call AG for short) house where she soon shipped me up to my aunts home up in washington state in the USA where I lived almost a full year in verbal abuse instead of physical, however it still hurts greatly.
I lived there for a decent amount of time and things were going ok I can't exactly say they were amazing lol but they were ok. When on Easter Day I was sexually harassed by my uncle, I had mentioned the harassment to my aunt and was just told I was lying, and just looking for ways to get others in trouble, so I took it to the police the got CPS involved and did a whole investigation. They let him off with a warning because I was just one kid with no witnesses. Soon after my aunt and uncle got a divorce which I was blamed for and then my aunt and my 2 cousins and I moved back with my AG in california and 2 of my other cousins stayed in Washington to live with their dad.
Well when we moved back it made things more complicated, I was blamed for everything that went wrong in the house, and though my aunt was never physically abusive and my AG had stopped the physical abuse they were bother still very verbal about it. My 2 cousins however used violence all the time and would always get away with it.
Shortly after we moved to California the eldest of the 2 cousins moved back to be with his dad leaving the youngest cousin who was the worst, anyway after that I was blamed and accused of ruining their lives and was told that was all I was good for.
Well now it's been almost an entire 2 years (almost) since we moved back things have been going horrible there is always fighting. However I had thought my and my AG had gotten on better terms, boy was I wrong. One day my family found a download on my aunts Xbox that was idk *** run under my name, but thing is it was a purchase download and secondly I don't own an account on the council I don't even play video games but I had been accused of purchasing the download even though I don't own a credit card let alone money.
I had pointed out the facts and told them the flaws in the accusations, but was told I was just trying to manipulate them, then I was told to get the *** out.... So I did I left.
And not even a day later they called the cops and reported me as missing bc they stole my phone so I been kicked out no where to go and no phone to contact people to say hey haven't been kidnapped just was forced out with the clothes on my back.
Well now I found a place to stay, I was sleeping in the she'd of a friend of mine, not the best condition but it was a place to stay.
The police found me a week later due to someone reporting me at the house... Well that was it the police came, asked me questions, called CPS, called my grandmother... I didn't go back though I told the cop if he made me go back I would just leave again, I told them what they had done to me, told them all the abuse I went through..... Their response was not one you would expect to hear from a cop they had to leave me " well listen kid, our job is more difficult then some kid crying wolf. They seem like they care about you and they seem very worried. What you turn 18 in 3 months just tough it out until then. Just stop making our lives difficult bc you have fake problems to get attention" I told then they were sick to be saying that to me and I wasn't going back.
My AG had jumped in finally realizing I had had enough and she told them that I'm free to do what I want and she won't stop me just so long as I didn't come home they didn't care.
So I stayed after a while the whole thing blew over and some few weeks later I'm still living in my little shed (side note this shed was a storage shed that had rats in it and holes in the roof and was not warm, plus it's october) and my sister stops by for a visit and we made a day of it (later found out she was trying to escape the nightmares of home too, she is 19) we went shopping at a thrift store where I had found my cat, Big Red abandoned so I took him and made a post on *** after I had gotten my new phone, but nobody responded and the thrift store owner told me he was dumped there so I tried finding another person to take ownership of him but everyone I knew did want a male orange kitten that isn't fixed and has separation anxiety, and then I had a change of heart despite knowing I had no means to be able to car for him and I kept him, and that was the best choice I made in my whole life.
Well now it's November right I'm suffering from some sort of bad sickness and still living in a she'd and walking to school everyday ect ect.
When out of no where my friend tells me her mother wants me to come over for a check up because she is a nurse so is her dad and her aunt so I went over and I stayed for about 3 days and then I was asked to stay permanently, at first I wanted to say yes it most definitely was better than the shed I had been living in, but then I remembered red and told them I had an unfixed male cat I own and couldn't ever leave him, that's when I found out they took in stays and foster kittens. They told me they would get him fixed for me free of charge and he is getting all his shots too (he is only 6 months old).
So now I live with them and just had thanksgiving with their family, they are really accepting me here.... However I'm a little worried,
I have no clue what will happen after I graduate, I don't have a job, no ability to drive, no home outside of where I am now, and idk what I'm going to do in so scared of the future, but for now I think in just going to stick to one day at a time.
You know it's pretty crazy to me how a 17 year old can spend a life time wanting to give up, being abused and cursed and sworn, getting kicked out and even being homeless, and some how I have managed this far.
I just want to say I'm thankful and luck to have gone through all of it,
Someone once asked me if I regretted anything in my life or if I could would I change anything, I answered no proudly, because even through all the bad times I still made it out to who I am today and I love who I am now (mostly) and I wouldn't change it for the world.
So for this thanksgiving I just want to tell everyone I am thankful for everything that has come my way, I am thankful for the past and present experiences, and I'm thankful for all the good and bad moment that are going to come my way, there may be times where I want to quit or give up but then I remember those who still yet have it worse off then me and I'm thankfully for everything I get from the smallest glass of water to a roof over my head, food in my mouth and some one who cares enough to take a sick 17 year old and her cat into there home off the streets and out of a warn down shed.
I hope everyone has happy holidays be safe, be thankful and remember love and kindness can come from the one place you least expect it because where the storm clouds are, not to far is a rainbow ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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