I'm new at this so I'll tell you a little bit about my life

I was born into a abusive family

I was abused by my own family

No one to turn to

No one can talk to 

No one to reach out to me

No one to save me

I tied committing suicide at age 6

It didn't work

I cried my eyes out because my suicide planned didn't go through

Then I ended up trying to commit suicide again at age 16

I took so many pills

I don't remember anything

All I can tell you is what I was told by the doctors at the hospital

They pumped my stomach 

I didn't wake up for a week 

I was breathing on my own & everything but I just didn't wake up They said when I did wake up I didn't recognize anyone for a few days but my memory started coming back & that made everything worse because I started remembering why I tried killing myself. 

Again I had no one that I can talk to no one that would listen to me so I was admitted to the psych ward they kept me for over 2 months shortly afterwards they said she I was well enough to go home

I cried my eyes out & the doctors asked me what's wrong

I wanted to tell them I couldn't get anything to come out of my mouth

I know what I wanted to say but I couldn't get anything to come out

So they sent me home so a couple nights being home I ran away

Then I ran into couple girls I went to school with they said I can stay with them 

That was nice??  

Shorty after feeling so free

No abuse

It felt great

What I didn't know is that My life was getting close to being flipped upside down again. 

I just can't finish talking about what all happened to me after that. 

I'll let you know more that later when I'm able to. Sorry 

I love animals 

I love helping animals 

I can't stand anyone that abuse animals 

But anyways I'm sorry but I will try my best to fill in the blanks on the rest of my life when I can. 

Thank you for listening to me sweetie. 

It's my turn to listen to you 

About you and your life. 

Thank you

God bless

But now I'm happy 

I want to live 

I have a family that needs me so I have got to do everything to be here for my animals 

And for all the other animals that's needing someone to be there for them. 

I want to live 

I thank God everyday for helping me get through and lived through everything 

I thank God everyday for me being here for the animals. 

God bless. 

I'm paying it forward 

I want to be here for someone 

I am here to listen 

I know how it feels having no one.