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Whosanerd
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Bio
Hi, my name is Breanna. I live in the US and work a graveyard shift, so I'm up at odd hours.

I struggle with loneliness and have experienced some unique things in life, including caring for disabled adults full time, having a disabled parent, overcoming childhood and relationship violence and recovering from self harm.

I'm currently working through a hard break up so I'm sorry if I'm a downer or needy. It's just where I am right now.
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I Feel like I Lost "The One"
Relationship Stress / by Whosanerd
Last post
 May 26th, 2018
...See more I only dated him for 3 months and it was always a little shakey. We both admitted it was too physical too fast. We both had baggage. We both repressed scary feelings but dammed if I didn't love him from the moment I saw him. I never ever believed in love like that. He broke up with me two weeks ago. We broke contact a week ago. I miss him so bad it hurts every second and I can't stop crying. I went on two very nice dates since then, to try and force myself to move on, and only realized how incredibly safe and whole I felt with him. He wants nothing to do with me. I can't stop feeling like I missed my only chance at true love. I feel like I'm imploding. I didn't feel this bad after walking out of a 4 year relationship. This boy really got into my heart. I wish I knew what to do. I can't beg for him to come back but it's all I think about. I can't keep crying every day but it hits me at unexpected times. We liked all the same things and everything reminds me of him. I can't distract myself with anything because they've all been touched by him. I dream about him every night. I wish I was stronger. I wish I could accept this rejection better. I'm annoyed by my own patheticness. I wish I were empty of feelings. I just want him back but know it would just end in heartbreak all over again. I wish I could scrub out all my emotions and be sterile and empty and as nonplussed as I was before I ever met him. He made me feel so deeply and I hate him for that. Because he took it all away from me
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