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VioletCarson
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A Violet Carson. 🌹
Journals & Diaries / by VioletCarson
Last post
 November 27th, 2019
...See more Trigger warning. This is not a typical diary or whatsoever. This entries are depressing and messed up. I just need a place to release all my thoughts when I'm struggling with bipolar nonsense, PTSD and god knows what else I have in my sick mind. Don't read if you're depressed. It's not worth it. I feel the need to have an emotional dump, since my life is too fucked up. My head is. My body is. I know that maybe the forum will get deleted since I'm not very supportive in wordings. To be honest I'm right now struggling with images in my head. Sick images. Used body. Harsh words. Is this a sign of flashbacks? Why do I have to deal with this? Why should I silently suffer from all this and put up a face as if my life is perfect? I told a friend about these images. They tried to distract me, but I don't want to make them worry. Told them I'm fine now and just left. Just like that. What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm struggling to get better. I want this medication to work. I can't handle this myself anymore. I wish someone in real life knows and could give me a hug. Silently suffering is the worst.
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Looking for Listener for Bipolar II with BPD
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by VioletCarson
Last post
 April 17th, 2020
...See more I'm searching for listeners who can be a long term listener, for my bipolar disorder. I've posted the same thing as this one in my feed as well. Most listeners who don't click with me told me that I am too unstable and too all over the place when we chat. I guess ups and downs happen in chats too. I'm trying my hardest to get better. Sometimes I just couldn't force myself to be stable, even with the help of medications. Please PM if you can be my long term listener. Thanks.
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