SweetSurrender2020
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About Me:
Im 30, and I have a husband and four kids.
I love to watch tv, read and write, and pretty much love to really learn new things.
I love to gander at books and watch tv, but Im obsesed with sleeping !
My nickname could be sleeping beauty lol
Id rather be asleep than awake
I have had some good times and bad time in my life!
My life changed the day I found out I lost my fourth childwhile he was still inside of me.
I had just turned six months pregnant and my little baby son died insid of me withought any recolitioning of it happeing, I got the news he had no heartbeat at my obgyn appointment.
I broke down in the middle of the offcie floor crying hystercial, so upset wondering how I was going to go living my life
I did feel extremly overwhelmed with sadness that last along time and later turned into b resentment and later into grief.
I was mad at god, myself and my family at some point eventhough it wasnt any of our fault.
I just bcome desperatley hurt and heartbroken all at the same exact times and I ddi not know to express myself and so i satyed isoalted from everyone in my life
and I even came to the point I didnt care no longer of my future or my life.
I decided after months and months of crying and pointing fingers at people to put the blame
It was time to move on with my life regardles of how bad It feels to move on or how wrong it feels to move on knwoing a life will never get to know or explore this life,
I jsut thought to myself I could ahve died myself what would my son say to me if he could get the oppurtunity to speak he probaly tell me taht its okay to move on and its okay to be happy again to feel what happiness feels like and its okay to move on
I decided to move on and do it not jsut for my God, my husband, my family, but for My son
I always say im not living for me im living for Lewis lol tahts my sons name lewis.
so I know waht sadness, depression, and jsut plain oh hurt feels like, since loosing my son was the ost heartwrecning expereince ive ever truely went through.
I have also battled with ocd and generalized anziety dsiorder before this event.
I have been through some hard things, but i learned to find a way through the mist of this grief and through this pain I found some sort of relief and happiness along this way.
I know that I will never feel complete
but atleast life is easier to go through knwing that its worse giving up on ,life
and the people you care about and its easy to give up when life kicks you down
but the best part of it is riseing from the shadows and kciking life back right in its rear
get into gear and Be tahnkful for waht you do have and find your happiness and
you must remeber that its okay to not be 100 percent okay its life theres up and downs
its like a rolercoaster its one heck of a scary, but kind of fun ride
if you are on this page if you like what you read stop on by then we can get better aquainted and I can maybe help you get through some difficult times your going through or I can be a good listner either way were going to chat and might have some piticulars andfind some common ground maybe well be ahving fun idk take a chance on me
we can talk and work this out and help eachother cope and find some happiness amongst this crazy life were living in.
I hope your okay and if not I hope you will be
Just remember " every cloud ahs a silver linning
and if you love roses and cherries rember roses ahve some thorns attahed to them and cherry wouldnt be cherries withought the pits
in otherwords life is not a bed of roses sometimes the sheets have to be cleaned lol
im kiidng but im trying to say life not perfect its full of good times and bad.
its as if lifes a story book and wee the characters living amongst in scenes and we ahve roles
and we have happy times and bad times but its the end taht either makes people laugh or cry.
so choose your ending to your story and make it the best story anybodys ever heard.
Go catch your rainbow
and along the way bring an unbrella to block off the rain that come your way.
Happy rainbow hunting lepercauns!
Im 30, and I have a husband and four kids.
I love to watch tv, read and write, and pretty much love to really learn new things.
I love to gander at books and watch tv, but Im obsesed with sleeping !
My nickname could be sleeping beauty lol
Id rather be asleep than awake
I have had some good times and bad time in my life!
My life changed the day I found out I lost my fourth childwhile he was still inside of me.
I had just turned six months pregnant and my little baby son died insid of me withought any recolitioning of it happeing, I got the news he had no heartbeat at my obgyn appointment.
I broke down in the middle of the offcie floor crying hystercial, so upset wondering how I was going to go living my life
I did feel extremly overwhelmed with sadness that last along time and later turned into b resentment and later into grief.
I was mad at god, myself and my family at some point eventhough it wasnt any of our fault.
I just bcome desperatley hurt and heartbroken all at the same exact times and I ddi not know to express myself and so i satyed isoalted from everyone in my life
and I even came to the point I didnt care no longer of my future or my life.
I decided after months and months of crying and pointing fingers at people to put the blame
It was time to move on with my life regardles of how bad It feels to move on or how wrong it feels to move on knwoing a life will never get to know or explore this life,
I jsut thought to myself I could ahve died myself what would my son say to me if he could get the oppurtunity to speak he probaly tell me taht its okay to move on and its okay to be happy again to feel what happiness feels like and its okay to move on
I decided to move on and do it not jsut for my God, my husband, my family, but for My son
I always say im not living for me im living for Lewis lol tahts my sons name lewis.
so I know waht sadness, depression, and jsut plain oh hurt feels like, since loosing my son was the ost heartwrecning expereince ive ever truely went through.
I have also battled with ocd and generalized anziety dsiorder before this event.
I have been through some hard things, but i learned to find a way through the mist of this grief and through this pain I found some sort of relief and happiness along this way.
I know that I will never feel complete
but atleast life is easier to go through knwing that its worse giving up on ,life
and the people you care about and its easy to give up when life kicks you down
but the best part of it is riseing from the shadows and kciking life back right in its rear
get into gear and Be tahnkful for waht you do have and find your happiness and
you must remeber that its okay to not be 100 percent okay its life theres up and downs
its like a rolercoaster its one heck of a scary, but kind of fun ride
if you are on this page if you like what you read stop on by then we can get better aquainted and I can maybe help you get through some difficult times your going through or I can be a good listner either way were going to chat and might have some piticulars andfind some common ground maybe well be ahving fun idk take a chance on me
we can talk and work this out and help eachother cope and find some happiness amongst this crazy life were living in.
I hope your okay and if not I hope you will be
Just remember " every cloud ahs a silver linning
and if you love roses and cherries rember roses ahve some thorns attahed to them and cherry wouldnt be cherries withought the pits
in otherwords life is not a bed of roses sometimes the sheets have to be cleaned lol
im kiidng but im trying to say life not perfect its full of good times and bad.
its as if lifes a story book and wee the characters living amongst in scenes and we ahve roles
and we have happy times and bad times but its the end taht either makes people laugh or cry.
so choose your ending to your story and make it the best story anybodys ever heard.
Go catch your rainbow
and along the way bring an unbrella to block off the rain that come your way.
Happy rainbow hunting lepercauns!
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