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StrawberryPanda
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PathStep 2 Compassion hearts28 Forum posts115 Forum upvotes106 Current upvotes106 Age GroupAdult Last activeJanuary, 1970 Member sinceMay 29, 2014
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Why do I always end befriending maniplitive people? How do I see through them?
Relationship Stress / by StrawberryPanda
Last post
 April 15th, 2015
...See more My old house mate (we kicked her out finally) had been using mine & my other house mate's mental health against us. She's stolen a few hundred pounds off us and had been playing mind games. She's still using mind games. We had been sending her post to her mothers house (the only known address we have of her) so she wouldn't miss her letters. She's threatening to tell the police that we are "harassing" her unwell mother. my other house mate and I are considering getting the police involved. I'm now too scared to leave the house in case I bump into her. We've changed the locks but I'm still scared she's still there. In the past she's poisoned her previous house mates. shes not the only manipulative friend I have had. There's been a lot more in the passed. When i was 13 I was groomed by a paedophile why am u so stupid? Why do I always fall into people's trap?
IBS & chrones disease
Disability Support / by StrawberryPanda
Last post
 April 7th, 2015
...See more When I was 18 I developed lactose intolerance and was diagnosed with IBS. I've had multiple blood tests since (now 22) but they always come out normal. i have every symptom for chrones disease but blood tests say otherwise. I have unexplained mucus and blood in my poo.  My friends gf, took her 5 years to be diagnosed with Chrones. She knew it was more than IBS. Like me her blood tests kept coming normal until one day. drs don't listen to me :(   
The iPad app is terrible and keeps getting worse - please fix!
Site Updates / by StrawberryPanda
Last post
 April 8th, 2015
...See more I can't type in the threat post box, nothing happens. Also before this whenever I pressed backspace it stopped being able to type so I had to cancel the post and start again, it's quite infuriating especially when I'm struggling and using the forum to reach out for support or using it as distraction.
How to deal with the comedown after a "good" day?
Depression Support / by StrawberryPanda
Last post
 April 30th, 2015
...See more The fog had lifted a bit this morning. It was still painful to get up but I had a bit more energy this time. My bf & me have been arguing lots. He asked if I’d prefer it if I didn’t care. He says if he doesn’t nag me then I won’t eat or wash. So today was a lovely break from my depression ruining everything. Anxiety was there. The castle was quite busy & there were lots of children running about. I got anxious over walking up steps, I kept having intrusive images of me slipping & smashing my face. Overall it was lovely. Beautiful sights & so damn cool to be in the middle of history. But now what? I’m tired from all the stimulus. It’s past midnight so I should sleep but my brain won’t let me off easily. It has to squeeze in pain somewhere.
How do you cope with the intensity of emotions?
Personality Disorders Support / by StrawberryPanda
Last post
 April 1st, 2015
...See more It really has a physical toll on me. Today I didn't get out of bed til 5pm it's just so tiring. I'm constantly in a state of desperation, whichever mood I'm in. 
How to stop sleeping my life away?
Depression Support / by StrawberryPanda
Last post
 April 1st, 2015
...See more I don't have the motivation to be alive so the next best thing to being dead is sleeping. My dreams are better than real life. I see I'm wasting time but then if I'm awake all my mental illnesses hit me hard.
Medication & weight gain.
Eating Disorder Support / by StrawberryPanda
Last post
 April 10th, 2015
...See more I have had many issues with medication, I've had some serious side affects (the last one cussed my bladder to completely shut down, had to have a catheter for 3 weeks - I was luckily to escape without kidney damage). I hugely struggle with medication. I don't feel it but apparently there's a difference when I'm on it & not. my GP is tryna get me on a medication which I've previously been on before, I came off it because it caused me to gain weight. there's a chemical in medication that caused my bladder to stop functioning so i have limited choice.  I'm totally torn. I want to get on with life. I massively struggle to control my anxiety & mood. When I'm not on medication I get even more suicidal & impulsive & I've made some silly decisions whilst not on medication. BUT I can't cope with weight gain. I don't want to be fat & mentally ill. I will be mentally ill either way so is there any point? 
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