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Spockette
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PathStep 34 Compassion hearts30,634 Forum posts48 Forum upvotes116 Current upvotes116 Age GroupAdult Last activeJune, 2024 Member sinceMarch 22, 2021
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29 genderqueer/transmasc he/they




Never be Clever

Goin' down the line, my head up high
Wonder why it's so hard to feel fine
Got all I need
Plastic teeth
A pocket full of speed
And I'm cool with the heat
A groovy little lady seems I'm waisting her time
Got a head and a bullet
Still back in crime
People say I used to do better
I guess I'm gonna have to get myself together
But I'll never
I'll never be clever
I'll never ever
I'll never be clever
Some say I'm suicidal
With a sense of humour
Some say I'm faking it all
Trying to start rumours
Some people say a moment lasts longer
I find myself at home
Settled down, write a song


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Recent forum posts
Turning animals into humans in your head?
Autism Support / by Spockette
Last post
 January 6th
...See more Okay first of all bear with me because I am really nervous about posting this/sharing this with "the world" because it sounds kind of ridiculous.. and I honestly didn't know where to post this but since I'm autistic...here goes nothing: You know how furries have like a fursona right(a character that is an anthropomorphic animal). So ever since I was a small child being obsessed with sailor moon on the TV, I got introduced to cats that could suddenly transform into humans. So me and my colourful fantasies did this sort of "synesthesia like thing" of creating a "humansona" for every cat I saw, and later dogs and other animals. When I look at an animal I see a clear picture of a human with its own distinct looks and features, especially if I know the animal well it becomes a whole persona. My 12 y/o tuxedo cat for example is a 16 year old alt girl with tan skin, a pear shaped figure and her hair is black shoulder length with a bleached white fringe. She has a very distinct face with defined facial features too such as a slightly crooked hook like nose. She has evolved over the years as she has gotten older pretty much how the image of any other child would when growing up. I don't know why my brain brains this way but it happens almost automatically. Like I don't even have to think much about it I just see these human personas pop up in my head when I look at an animal. Does anyone else have this? Is this a common phenomenon? I couldn't find anything on it but maybe someone is better at searching than I am. I am not trying to be special, and I know it is my strong and vivid imagination, I just was wondering if I was alone in this at all? Is this my autism going haywire? Would be cool if anyone felt the same. It's a big reason for me why I connect deeply to animals and can't eat them. Sorry for the long post.
The 10 minute challenge!
Motivation & Accountability / by Spockette
Last post
 October 19th, 2023
...See more Feeling depressed? Hard to get back into hobbies, passions and things you loved to do?  We're gonna try! Just 10 minutes a day for a start! Any healthy offline activity is welcome, some ideas: * Journaling  * Exercise * Meditation  * Brain training games (puzzles, or even learning a language would be cool!) * Creative endeavours  * Studying special interests  * Reading We're gonna aim for 10 minutes a day, don't feel bad if you can't do 10 right away -starting with 5 is totally acceptable!  Perhaps in a few weeks we'll be doing 15 or even 20 minutes! Who's with me :D? Feel free to join us here and in SR 💖 --------- @anonymouswriter13 @wendybird14 @jasminerice @radiantbeam00 @Merliah001 @Blythe98 
Abusing uppers to manage adhd?
Addiction Support / by Spockette
Last post
 September 26th, 2023
...See more Anyone else who abuses uppers to manage adhd? I use speed almost every day to manage my undiagnosed adhd symptoms and get stuff done. It doesn't make me hyperactive, it calms me down and organises my thoughts. I can clean my house and take care of my business and I don't suffer from negative adhd symptoms. The downsides are that I get no quality sleep and that my appetite is gone (TW: I lost 3kg in 2 weeks). Wondering what I should do. I used to be a raging alcoholic but cut back on drinking since starting speed. Now I drink once a week. I have been warned of damage from using amphetamines long term so I don't wanna make it sound like a miracle cure. Also my doctor doesn't wanna diagnose me with adhd because I already have an autism and schizoaffective disorder diagnosis.
Flushing meds while manic
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by Spockette
Last post
 July 27th, 2023
...See more Hey does anyone else have a tendency to or flush their meds while manic or mixed? I have medication I can't afford to flush (lithium) since it'll be bad for my levels that I've built up and it's important to keep those stable. Does anyone have tips for these urges? I also have to take my antipsychotics or I'll start having a bad time... but I'll wholly convince myself I'm not ill anymore.. it's frustrating.
I'm stuck
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by Spockette
Last post
 March 9th, 2023
...See more TW please do not read this if you're triggered by active use. After years of substance abuse drinking has now become a daily occurrence for me. Some days it's only a couple and other days I binge drink. But I don't really go a day without. Especially before social interactions I feel like I have to drink and sneak a couple of shots before I go. I have also relapsed into substances a couple of times this year and also prescription drugs which I combine with alcohol. My therapist told me that I need to leave therapy if I can't get sober on my own since it's a contra indication for my current outpatient therapy. I don't know what to do. On top of this all of my "friends" in real life are also addicts so it's extremely lonely. I can't even be alone by myself anymore without a couple of drinks since it's the only thing that numbs my mental issues. I want to do better but I don't think I can and it feels like all hope is lost. Just want to know that I'm not alone. I feel like I'm destroying myself.
Being seen as "high functioning" but getting burnout from masking
Autism Support / by Spockette
Last post
 February 11th, 2022
...See more People often perceive me as high functioning even though it takes me so much energy to mask (just so I'll get accepted more). Now that I'm in a position where I don't really have to I seriously don't know how to unmask anymore.. and the burn out symptoms lead to selective mutism and severe social anxiety. Does anyone have tips for unmasking at school or work where autism is accepted?
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