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Sherbertdab
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Borderline.
Personality Disorders Support / by Sherbertdab
Last post
 July 4th
...See more was diagnosed with BPD a few months ago and to be honest at the time, i thought it meant I was going to be a violent murderer (too many movies ;)) I was absolutely terrified and to be honest, I still feel incredibly on my own, I don't know how long I have had Bpd but it could have been anywhere from3-10 years.  I don't really feel anything anymore, it feels like I spend all my time forcing a smile then it fades the second the person who it was for looks away. I occasionally become overwhelmed by feelings and end up crying, sometimes to the point of physically throwing up.  I spend a huge amount of time forcing emotions to make other people feel I'm interested the only living thing I have any kind of connection to is my dog who is also the only one who knows when I'm faking happiness. I find myself being really snarky towards people I care about as well and I never fully understand why. My point in this post is mostly to say thank you, for making me feel better about feeling bad because I'm constantly made to feel like I'm being a horrible person for feeling nothing. Again, thank you. 
Called gross
Eating Disorder Support / by Sherbertdab
Last post
 January 23rd, 2015
...See more I use this app called Talklife. It's a helpful resource for people with mental health illnesses and really general problems. You can go and vent. And talk about problems. Recently I went on to talk about the fact that I'm decreasing the number of calories and I got called selfish and gross. and it's seriously making me cry I know I'm gross and selfish, I know it's unhealthy but eating makes me want to kill myself, and throw up. I just needed help. But this one person decides to practically shoot me in the face.
I don't know what is happening to me
Eating Disorder Support / by Sherbertdab
Last post
 January 14th, 2015
...See more For about a month now I have been really restricting what I eat, it's like every time I have to eat I spend ages fiddling with the food and taking tiny bites. I'm constantly jigging my legs up and down to help me lose weight and I weigh myself every day (I've lost just over [edited by 24Help1 for weight]). I've been avoiding cheese and chips and other fatty foods. Whenever my mum want take out I nearly break down crying and I have no idea what is happening.� I feel like my body is constantly fat and that the only solution is not eating. Every time I try to convince myself to go get a snack of some kind I just stand staring at the cupboard with my brain telling me not to. It's started to escalate as well, I nearly purged earlier because my mum made me eat a Pizza Hut pizza, no weight is good enough, I nearly faint trying to walk across a room. I'm scared and I don't know what's going on. I'm trying to recover from depression and now this. I don't know what to do. Please help.
I have no idea what is happening to me
Eating Disorder Support / by Sherbertdab
Last post
 April 10th, 2015
...See more For about a month now I have been really restricting what I eat, it's like every time I have to eat I spend ages fiddling with the food and taking tiny bites. I'm constantly jigging my legs up and down to help me lose weight and I weigh myself every day (I've lost just over a stone). I've been avoiding cheese and chips and other fatty foods. Whenever my mum want take out I nearly break down crying and I have no idea what is happening.  I feel like my body is constantly fat and that the only solution is not eating. Every time I try to convince myself to go get a snack of some kind I just stand staring at the cupboard with my brain telling me not to. It's started to escalate as well, I nearly purged earlier because my mum made me eat a Pizza Hut pizza, no weight is good enough, I nearly faint trying to walk across a room. I'm scared and I don't know what's going on. I'm trying to recover from depression and now this. I don't know what to do. Please help. 
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