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Sarai12487
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Over it!
Depression Support / by Sarai12487
Last post
 November 2nd, 2014
...See more You know, someone can only take so much. I am so freaking tired! So done with feeling like nothing. Feeling like I am worth nothing more then dirt. My uncle and mother say I am useless. You know I am starting to think I am. I hide in my house because of the anxiety, depression and anti social personality I have. I am afraid to leave the house, because if I am judged so harshly inside of the house, I would be judged just as bad outside if not more. I am so over it! I honestly just want to end it! I have no where to go, or no where to turn. I am just so tired...
Where do I turn?
General Support / by Sarai12487
Last post
 June 4th, 2014
...See more There are days things when things seem to be fine. Others I am just so scared to move. I haven't had a decent night sleep in years. I am lucky to get 3 hours of sleep a night if I even try. A few nights ago I fell asleep and I woke up clawing at my throat, because I thought 'he' was there again. Stupid nightmare made me flashback to a very bad moment. Never mind that I have two guys that want me to date them. To be honest I am not comfortable dating anyone with the state my mind is in. Never mind that, I am just so afraid that all I am going to be is used. They are touchy feely guys and I don't mind it, but some of the touches flashes me back to that time. I just don't know how to control it. I tell them that I don't want to date anyone right now, because I am afraid of getting hurt or me hurting them. It seems like every time I say 'no' everyone thinks I say 'yes' but when I say 'yes' I mean 'yes'. I don't know, maybe I should move to a different country, might make life easier. Start over, get away from the memories..... So where do I turn from here? Cause at this point, I have no idea.
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