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Saquimaster22
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School and social anxiety
Anxiety Support / by Saquimaster22
Last post
 November 3rd, 2020
...See more Hi, everyone who is reading. Well to start off, I'm a sophomore in high school and since the beginning of the school year I've felt as if I've pushed myself too far this year because I'm talking class that are way above my grade level. I'm taking these classes so I can start setting up for academic scholarships but this year turned out to be super hard. I lucked out last grading period with a really low C in a class and a low A in another but this grading period I'm already starting off with F's and I can't have that bring down my GPA. I don't know if I'm going to be able to apply for the scholarship I need now and I get that it's only my sophomore year but every grade counts and I don't want to have to take out student loans and be in debt. I usually don't do this bad but I don't know how to cope with it. I feel stupid. Then next year my mom wants me to go into a program that turns all my classes into AP classes (college level courses) and I really don't know if I can do it. Secondly, I can't talk to people. Every time I try to have a conversation I shut down because I feel like I'm going to say the wrong thing. I don't want to drive them away because of something I joke around about and they take offense to. That and I just get really nervous around people in general. When someone talks to me I start to shiver uncontrollably and studder. I sometimes want to talk to that person and it still happens. I'm even nervous to send this message. I just kinda melt and brake down in those situations and I hate myself for it but I can't do anything about it. Im sorry, thank you for reading
My story
Depression Support / by Saquimaster22
Last post
 September 29th, 2020
...See more Hey everyone, Towards the end of 6th grade I moved to a new school and met so really interesting kids. At the time we were good friends and we played video games together. Around the beginning of 7th grade we met up with a couple more kids and they all joined our group until we had about 5 or 6 people we played games with regularly. I don't know why but it felt like over night the same friend I hung out with in 6th grade just started targeting me and bullying my first whatever reason. I thought he was just playing like any little kid does at that age but he kept targeting me for months and with every month that went by I started feeling worse about myself I was repeating all the negitive things he was saying about me. It got to a point where I started to cut myself and eventually I almost killed myself a couple times. I stopped myself from doing it though because I was scared of how I would have left my parents and my one true friend at the time. Anyway it's been a couple years since then and I stopped cutting myself but I still always doubt myself and I'm always talking myself down I still repeat everything he said back then and lately I've been feeling like how I did back then I almost started cutting again. For the past couple of weeks I've been feeling this way so with the help of a friend I'm finally trying to get some help i don't know how to close this off but thank you for listening.
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