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Rareshadow666
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suppressing emotions :/
PathStep 25 Compassion hearts1,725 Forum posts44 Forum upvotes109 Current upvotes109 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2024 Member sinceMay 30, 2023
Bio

Some of my hobbies include reading, writing stories and poetry, singing and drawing or painting art. I love listening to music, some of my favorite artists/bands include: Slipknot, Billie Eilish, Halsey, and Evanescence. I love playing video games such as Zelda games and Roblox.


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I've been through so much, dealing with depression, being inpatient, dealing with grief, friends leaving me. And sometimes I end up just feeling so lonely. I was recently diagnosed with some things and I’m still trying to process that. This app has been very helpful for me during those times.


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Life is never merciful. It will kick you down when your already holding your bleeding stomach, it will smash you into the pavement until you can hardly breathe. But it is your job to get back up and keep moving forward. What I've been through and what you've been through make you a stronger person. It makes you who you are. You are loved, you are strong and life is worth living for. 

























Recent forum posts
Improv Writing
Reading & Writing / by Rareshadow666
Last post
May 28th
...See more I knew as I passed through the hallway that I was being followed, I could feel the hairs on the back of my neck stand up, the faint scuff of shoes on concrete. I knew that I was being followed. Wildly, I searched myself, hoping that I had some something on me that I could use against my assailant. But I found nothing of use. I wasn't even supposed to be in this part of town. I was supposed to be at home with my wife and kids, but she insisted that the groceries couldn't wait.  The store closest to us was closed so here I was, on the dingy side of town, where the worst things happen.  I saw a figure come around the corner, holding something sharp and I ran, abandoning my shopping cart. I ran until I got a painful stitch in my side and I was sure that I had left the person far behind. I bend over to catch my breath, and when I get back up a tall masked man with dark eyes is standing there. "How-" I start to say but my words were cut off as he stabs my stomach with the object. Pain explodes in my abdomen, and I can feel the stomach acid eating away at my flesh. Then man pushes me to the ground where I collapse and I know that I'm going to pass away, alone and afraid. An image of my two daughters flit through my mind, their happy faces as they danced in the field near our house. My wife and her constant obsession with making food. And the pure love I can see in her eyes every time she looks at me.  I sigh to myself and feel the pain fading away. Then everything goes black.
Blind (TW; fear, violence)
Reading & Writing / by Rareshadow666
Last post
April 28th
...See more He couldn't see more than a few feet in front of him, and that made his heart hammer in his chest, caused his breath to quicken just a little bit; but it wasn't the scariest part. The part that really made his heart hammer was the sound close behind him, constantly lurking. The sound of something dragging against the stone floor. Shing. The only thing that made that sound was a blade being removed from a sheath. And that other sound...he had a horrible feeling in his gut, and something told him that he wouldn't make it out of here alive. (Let me know if I should make a part two!)
Jolie
Grief & Loss / by Rareshadow666
Last post
March 2nd
...See more I feel the tears rolling down my face as I'm listening to music. It came unexpectedly. I was having a fine day. Why now? Why does grief take you and grab you, snatching you out of blue? I miss my act, I wish how she would act. Every black fluffy cat with green eyes reminds me of her. I'm still processing, I'm still feeling. I'm grieving, and I feel like there's so much more inside that I haven't let out. There was so much love for her. And now she's gone and I don't know how to process it. 
Depression
Poetry / by Rareshadow666
Last post
January 25th
...See more I rose from the dead With my arms crossed over my chest Awakened from my depressive state My depression has become too much lately It’s weighing me down like lead Thinking sometimes that I’m better off dead Thinking of all the problems that I cause How everyone seems to hate me Yet I’m not sure why Where is the problem Why can’t I see it Why am I blind Where is my faith Where is my mind I lost it long ago When the voices started When my father died I lost myself and I’m not sure who I am anymore
Why do I waste my time on you?
Poetry / by Rareshadow666
Last post
January 26th
...See more Why do I waste my time on you It’s clear that you don’t care about us It’s clear that you don’t love us It’s clear that you were never our friend And you never wanted to apologies So if you can’t admit to your mistakes, Then are you even worth our time?
Blades of a knife
Poetry / by Rareshadow666
Last post
January 30th
...See more I don't like being hurt Blades of a knife stabbing in my back Heartattack Over and over again I trust and I love But over and over again I am hurt and lied to I am not the one to blame It's not my fault People are not perfect Yet I'm reminded that there's a God And that life is worth it What God? If God was real why would he let suffering It seems he likes watching us suffer It seems he gave up It seems we were just his experiment I used to think that I belonged to the devil But now I just know that there is no devil There is no God And there is no heaven of ***
FNAF MOVIE :D
TV & Movies / by Rareshadow666
Last post
October 3rd, 2023
...See more Who's going to see the fnaf movie this october!? I am! So excited!
I speak my mind
Poetry / by Rareshadow666
Last post
September 1st, 2023
...See more I speak my mind because it hurts to bite my tongue. For my whole life I’ve been on the run. Missing out on the fun. I’ve been trying and trying to become…Well, become someone. Be someone I can be proud of. Someone I can defend. Someone I can love. I haven’t gotten there yet, but that doesn’t mean I’ve had enough.
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