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Popsicle99
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Some random girl trying to discover who she is...
PathStep 19 Compassion hearts120 Forum posts19 Forum upvotes92 Current upvotes92 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2024 Member sinceNovember 2, 2024
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I am gamer, ballerina and scientist, which sounds like a lot, but if I stop, I promise you won't like to be around. 

I practice ballet, I am currently trying to study biochemistry and I also play on twitch with my friends. I love reading and writing, also a fan of classical music, Taylor Swift and punk rock (weird but good combo). 

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General Support / by Popsicle99
Last post
 November 17th, 2024
...See more I just wanted to let this out... I am 25, I was raised by my grandparents who gave me everything (material) but made me this anxious, difficult and sad mess (cause I grew up with passive-agressive words, with constant manipulation, with the fear of never being enough, without being able to express my feelings...) anyway, two years ago I left home. I moved to another country, I started living my own life for the first time, I finally felt free, more confident, happier, safer... They started being grateful for everything I did when I was there, they even told me they love me and they were proud of me (it took 23 tears to finally hear it, and many miles between us so they see it), and I have been working on myself for a while, trying to heal, trying to deal with some mental issues they left me, trying to be a better person, caring about me for the first time, doing what's best for me... And today they told me I am an ungrateful daughter cause I only care about me, like I am so selfish for trying to be fine or doing my life... I know I am not ungrateful, I did everything I could for them when I was there, I tried to be the best daughter, I never gave them any trouble, I had good grades, never went partying, never drank or got high, I helped them in the drugstore they own, I never asked for money or stuff even though I needed it... Why is it so bad to finally care about me first?
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I don't mean to be rude
General Support / by Popsicle99
Last post
 November 17th, 2024
...See more I don't know if someone has ever experienced this, but lately I have been having some trouble with the people who is close to me, mostly with my roommate and best friend. I realized that sometimes I am unable to control what I feel, I am unable to control what I say or how I act. Just today I was mean to her, without even noticing, I was rude and that happens more often that I wish it would. I don't realize I am being mean until I hurt the people I care about. How do you guys cope with that? How do you learn to think before talking or acting? I know maybe she needs to give me some patience because I don't control it, but I can't ask for it if I don't even understand myself.
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I'm new here
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by Popsicle99
Last post
 November 13th, 2024
...See more I am discovering myself, taking the first step to heal and know me, I haven't been diagnosed because rn I can't afford a specialist, but I really want to learn more about ways to cope with what is happening to me (I relate to a lot of people with bipolar, although I am not self diagnosing)
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Isn't it hard?
7 Cups Online Therapy / by Popsicle99
Last post
 November 5th, 2024
...See more Don't you think it's so difficult when you don't even know what's happening to you? Like you think you're depressed, but that period ends eventually, then you think you're happy, but when you're at the top of the world everything crashes down...
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