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Paulrm
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PathStep 15 Compassion hearts121 Forum posts59 Forum upvotes95 Current upvotes95 Age GroupAdult Last activeMay, 2024 Member sinceNovember 9, 2017
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Never far from a crossroads, plagued by coincidence, stupidly good at putting myself in others shoes-but rarely my own, tied to my position of support, never out front.  Frustrated by others sway over me, even though I willingly hand them the ability to manipulate me.  Have no idea who I am, but constantly frustrated by who I have become.  

I cry because I feel,
I feel because I am human.
I can live without love
But the hatred splits my soul.


If you do not want who I am
I’ll walk away from your disappointment
Maybe acceptance lives elsewhere
Perhaps you do not understand love

Acceptance for me, acceptance for you
The strength of my fear reflects your fear of my strength
I cry because I love
I love because….. …………that’s all there is!

Recent forum posts
Realize
Depression Support / by Paulrm
Last post
 January 26th
...See more There comes a time when you realize when potential runs out, bone dry the before begins to dwarf the soon not just yet admits to never dreams vanish along with the desire  the glass has emptied yet the thirst remains choice contracts acceptance is left I have nothing to give i must accept what is not what if the real is value the comparison is from a tree grown from the seed of illusion a pathway to nowhere, the journey taken for the benefit of the unseen give up the toil of the many for the few take the next exit as soon as you can appreciate, appreciate, appreciate the real Take care of yourself, your look, your strength, you’re mind, you’re feel
Time and the illusion of infinity
Poetry / by Paulrm
Last post
 January 9th
...See more TIME Is there a time limit on life or love A sell-by date when the clock runs out A best before without a doubt Time is done, no scream, no shout Finite beings whose experience is short Fit it all in before the bell Ringing for heaven, ringing for *** I’m not quite done but who to tell? Regret for the should For the what-if and the could Put things off until never Blaming time and the weather Can I go back to the start Make the list and fill the cart Do all the stuff I believed I should Write my history in sand or mud Your time is up Your lists are long Some things done right, some things done wrong Try again next time Or learn your lesson Appreciate reality, navigate obsession understanding the balance between desire and capability is a hard reality.  Accepting and recognizing accomplishment and success is a skill worth using!
Gone
Poetry / by Paulrm
Last post
 December 19th, 2023
...See more Gone who will brush the hair of the dead tuck the shirt, tie the shoe, Smooth the collar, shirt of blue who will touch the cheek with a kiss say kind words, to the birds, that fly by, black specks in the sky Can I rely on you, for this service, for this care should I ask before I go, or trust in your who, what and where i hope you will be gentle, showing love and regret I hope you will be resolute, absolute, steadfast and strong - set you’ll be my last encounter, my final hand and lip thank you for your kindness, I have no words, no tip goodbye for now, I miss you - I wish I showed more love but the world from which I came from showered me with pain from above more love, more love, more empathy and care less hate, less hate less destruction, more repair
Who are you
Depression Support / by Paulrm
Last post
 November 11th, 2023
...See more The sense of self…….? have you ever met yourself?   Do you think you know who you are.  Most of the time my sense of self remains constant and aires on the side of positive, functional, just and honest.  However, once in a while a valid challenge is ushered that strips away any solidity you ever had about who you are.  The efficacy of this challenge must come from a person you trust.   What to do with the immediate de-basement of the sense of self.  Like catching a patch of ice on the highway as you fly along at 85mph and the instantaneous realization of the world as a real and consequential place becomes the only relevant issue.  You are jolted away from the flotsam and jetsam of the everyday humdrum and gripped by the crushing, icy vice of unknowing the one certain thing above all else            -            who I think I am. The only hope, for car and person, is to briefly wiggle back to a functional, and drive-able, state of progress.   But there is always a small feeling left that perhaps everything you think is un-real and that only in tiny moments of absolute terror as you sink into the true survival mode, that is where the real you is.  And maybe the real you, as revealed, is not just unfamiliar but somewhat distasteful and scares you with unfamiliarity and unlikeable qualities. in conclusion, the trust in a person who carry’s love for you will allow you to experience this alternative with wise words, navigate and resolve. -  I hope everyone out there has such a person and please accept my condolences for those that do not!
The repetition of fractals and the unfocused perception of fictitious reality
Motivation & Accountability / by Paulrm
Last post
 October 16th, 2023
...See more 7 cups provides a forum to collect the broken!   However, perhaps we are not the broken but instead we are the pioneers.  The emergent force of perception that has begun to see the toxicity of where and how we are. you are not broken, you are magnificent and glorious your struggle is a journey weighed down by baggage given to you by people and held by you to give validation to your recognition that something ‘wrong’ has happened and that wrong must somehow be made right.  But right is a perception based on hypothetical constructs of right and wrong that you picked up along the way.  Told to you by all the right people for all the wrong reasons.  To give you a framework to operate within, to give you a pathway to stay on, to keep you on a narrowly focused track that they were told will provide happiness, satisfaction, success, contentment and fulfillment.   We are starting to see that pathway erode, the maintenance has been lacking and the potholes have become huge.  We must not only navigate this crumbling trail, it is now flooded by more and more travelers, especially as their pathways have actually crumbled, leaving them desperate and hopeless. But to all 7 cuppers - you are the pioneers, the magnificent and the glorious.  You are looking beyond the path.  You have recognized that others have made a mistake, have given you baggage, and expect you to carry it, maintain it and prioritize it. So you have only one more step, put it down and just wander off the path a little.  You are the pioneers that will give rise to this alternate way, and in doing so will interrupt the inter generational movement of psychological weight that is keeping you tethered.  I believe once you make this decision, to change your mindset, and just shed the weight - not dismiss or forgive or forget, just put down somewhere, you will set yourself free! with this freedom you will open so many other pathways and journeys that life will begin to bloom like a flower in the sun.  Not just one flower though, there will be a whole field and every rose will be smiling!
Running
Depression Support / by Paulrm
Last post
 October 31st, 2023
...See more It’s ok to keep running as long as you know why your running and where your running to. to run with your eyes closed will only cause you to trip……… ……..and you will get hurt! I think I know that I have to run again, and I think I am beginning to know why and I think it will be a liberating and exhilarating thing! Thats weird, isn’t it……or is it? anyone else feel like running?
Swim it, run it, get out of breathe and sweat a little - what do you do?
Depression Support / by Paulrm
Last post
 October 19th, 2023
...See more Just finished a hard 2 mile swim.  I have always swam, well most of my life anyway.  I have done a lot of other sports and activities but swimming has been a constant for the last 35 years.  There is nothing quite like the apres-swim feeling, as the ‘thank you’ chemicals begin to circulate.  They seem so happy that every tendon, ligament, joint, bone and muscle has been moved, stretched, pulled, compressed and flexed.  They seem to race around the body with purpose and a smile.  They announce the gratitude of physical excitation. What sport or activity gives you that boost, that invigoration, the warm fuzzy feeling of satisfaction?
Theoretical perspective of toxic masculinity as seen through the eyes of an empathetic human - perhaps!
Poetry / by Paulrm
Last post
 October 16th, 2023
...See more WEEDS. When acceptance has withered And the weeds grow thick around the stem They take all the food, all the sun, all the rain They dry the flowers to hasten the end Like pirates boarding the ship to plunder Sails dropped and mast cut, obey or die Choice removed as survival is a singular option To fight, to yield, the world retracts Wisdom allows this fate to be seen Before it has become the only course Seeds released to give future hope To accept the truth yet still go on. This is why a man will stay Not to fight or change To see the potential in the future with never ending hope An evolutionary gift of selfless reason
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