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MysteriousK24
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PPD & Obsessive thinking, insecurities ect.
Journals & Diaries / by MysteriousK24
Last post
 February 20th, 2023
...See more I was diagnosed with PPD, which I figured I would develop because I have depression and anxiety already. I'm about 2 months postpartum so my hormones are still all out of wack. That said, since about 4 months pregnant I started accusing and thinking my husband was cheating because I'm super insecure. He has never given me reason to think he would cheat on me. It all got triggered when I was on his phone and saw a message from a girl on *** in his dms. He said good morning beautiful and she replied back hello, but the message was never open. His account was hacked assuming by the girl and he swears on his son's life that he didn't message her on there. He knew the girl and found her on an app that they were chatting to each other on, so it's not a completely random girl. He did delete and block her and let me change his *** password. He will let me look at his phone whenever I want and go through it if I please, it has always been like that. Since then though I've just been so insecure and still today think about it and obsess over it. I uninstalled all my social medias because even getting on them or seeing them on my phone triggered my thoughts about all of that. How do I stop thinking like this
Panic again
Anxiety Support / by MysteriousK24
Last post
 August 7th, 2022
...See more Just woke up again from a dreamless sleep again and feel like my heart is racing and pounding again. Can't get a decent sleep since becoming pregnant, almost every night this happens now. When will it go away? I hate feeling like I'm dying every time I wake up now. Anyone else??? Am I alone??
Overthinking it
Relationship Stress / by MysteriousK24
Last post
 July 3rd, 2022
...See more I've been with my husband a total of five years, he has always proved to be loyal. I recently found a message sent from an account of his to a girl nothing too bad it just said good morning beautiful. She replied but he never opened her reply. I found it a month after it was sent, so he never opened it for a month. He said someone hacked his account and I was having trouble believing. I messaged the girl and she said they were just friends, shortly after I messaged her tho someone tried logging into his account but it failed. I saw it with my eyes he didn't tell me. It was from a different state and place. So I believe his account really got hacked, and he has even proven his loyalty by blocking said person with me asking and even going farther and deleting other girls from his page that I've know and he knew just to make me comfortable. My issue is is that, everyone around me says it sounds like he wouldn't cheat and I believe them, but Im pregnant and severely depressed and just can't get the doubts and anxiety out of my head. I believe him I do but it's like my mind wants to self destruct
What do I do with bipolar
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by MysteriousK24
Last post
 May 13th, 2022
...See more So my modes switch so suddenly I hate it. I can get mad at the blink of an eye. I got mad yesterday and snapped at my mom and made her sad but I couldn't stop it, it just didn't have time to filter first. I get mad so easily with my husband for no reason to half the time I have no clue why. How do I tackle this.
Dark place in my mind Feb 25
Journals & Diaries / by MysteriousK24
Last post
 February 25th, 2022
...See more I'm only in my twenties and married love my husband to death. But lately I've been super depressed to the point to where it's scaring me. I promised I wouldn't ever try to unalive myself so I will keep true but that doesn't make my thoughts go away. Lately I've felt like a burden to all around me, I feel I'm not good enough and I've begun to wonder if anyone would truly miss me if I disappeared for good. It won't get out my head. my family would be fine I live far away anyways and no one hardly talks to me, and my husband would probably be fine after a month or two I'm just such a burden to him. I have so many mental problems and I can tell at times I'm too much for him, I also haven't been able to bear him a child he so much wants yet as well. His parents would be fine as well I'm just such a pain for them. I myself feel like I was cursed with so many problems on purpose that I should have just disappeared. I have no friends and I get why, why would anyone want to like me I'm so shy and have anxiety to often to go out for long plus I have trust issues. My life for me is broken and I feel so helpless, I don't wanna tell my husband because I don't want it to seem like I just want attention that's not me. I would rather they focus on someone else that could get help. I'm just too broken beyond repair. I'll just keep smiling and move past this dip in my life right now.
Pregnant???
Journals & Diaries / by MysteriousK24
Last post
 February 11th, 2022
...See more I'm so scared to take a pregnancy test just to be let down again. I'm a week late now but I have been before too. I wanna be a mom so bad it hurts. I just hope when I get around to taking the test it's a positive this time.... I'm losing hope
Does anyone else do this??
Journals & Diaries / by MysteriousK24
Last post
 February 9th, 2022
...See more Possible trigger at one point mention of sa So I can't stop obsessing over a person who use to be my friend. I ended the friendship because of drama they would start and the lies they would tell one of them being about being raped. After I ended the friendship I felt kind of bad I guess. I always think about them though, I see them all the time because they are dating a sibling of mine. I always wanna look up there Instagram and see how they are doing or sometimes I almost wanna break down and say sorry and try to be friends again. Idk why I do this I genuinely think they are a bad person and I have a strong dislike against them so why do I do this???
Parent in-law troubles
Family & Caregivers / by MysteriousK24
Last post
 February 22nd, 2022
...See more So me and my in-laws we get along great really do. We also live with them atm, money is tight But, me and my father in-law are like best friends so we get into a lot of fights. He is so stubborn and hard headed sometimes. And others he can just be childish about something. Well recently we went to Walmart I went with cause why not and the whole way there he was picking on me having laughs which is fine. Fast forward a little. We get to the store and he picks out some food and asked if I would hold it I joked and said no so he kept it then I tried getting it to hold and he refused. Later about to leave the store after checking out and I asked if he needed help carrying anything then he said you said no so no. I jokingly said laughing and smiling btw, well if you weren't acting like a dick on the way here I would have helped. And keep in mind we call each other worst names. But after getting in the car with him the ride home was silent, I'm fine with that. Got home I went to bed he made food. Later I go to check on him and I try talking but get ignored like a child, I end up just going back to the room then in bed. Next morning I go to work and usually before I leave the house we have small talk, but nothing. I got to work and I managed to message him asking if we were good. He said no I'm beyond mad with you. I'm confused now as to why. He said it was from me calling him a dick in front of people and that I was pissy about it and also that someone else gave him a dirty look. So I embarrassed him I guess, but he won't say I did. What I don't get though is he embarrasses me all the time and I don't get straight mad at him, I do it once and the world's over. I guess what I'm getting at is I always am the one who apologizes when we fight and also that he could have just came and talked to me. What do I do
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