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Mustafa97e
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Perhaps it will give me a little smile while I am underground...
Depression Support / by Mustafa97e
Last post
 March 29th, 2023
...See more I thought I had previously reached the top of depression mountain, but I found out that I was only on a small hill under the water... Tears flowed from my eyes until I felt tired, dizzy and suffocated. I haven't cried like this in years... My soul trembled as my body was shivering. I stayed like this for a while until suddenly everything stopped.... I don't feel anything anymore...all the water dried up and the feelings dried up with it. And I don't want to get out of here. The place is good here. to disappear... And if I go out one day, out of this place, I want to lie down quietly, with the sky above me. I might fall asleep for a while under the stars... That's what crossed my mind for few seconds... I love the sky but after all I want to be a part of the earth, beneath it. I want to be underfoot, so that my sins may fade away with me. May everything I regretted go away with me. Perhaps that person would have a little pity on me and appreciate my sacrifices, perhaps that would break the icy cells of her heart... Perhaps God will see my situation... and avenge me... Perhaps it will give me a little smile while I am underground... Maybe none of this will happen... But at least I will be with my mother.
I think I am done of being nice with people
Newbie Hub / by Mustafa97e
Last post
 March 26th, 2023
...See more We feel tied... Perhaps family restrictions, perhaps the long distances, perhaps the opinions of others, perhaps the eyes and looks of others... We want to do something else... We feel that there is something between us and ourselves, our freedom... idk about you guys, but I'm the kind of person who knows exactly what he wants... I know exactly the cause of my problems and I know exactly how to solve them...but I feel restricted... I know I can remove the chains, the key is in my hand... But I don't know why I don't free myself... Perhaps because prison is more merciful to me than the human monsters outside... Which I am not afraid of... Rather, I am exhausted... And I am afraid that I may cause everyone who encounters me terrible psychological pain... Maybe because there are so many out there who are lying, selfish, hypocritical... They tell us not to change, but they change and leave us. They tell us to be kind to them, but they slowly eat our souls... They tell us we're the worst... I think I'm good at that thing at least. I think I am done of being nice with people, until I see that they deserve that...
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