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Burnout affecting relationship
Relationship Stress / by MoreThanAConqueror18
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 May 23rd, 2022
...See more Hey all, I just need to vent a little. I've been trying to manage school full-time (15 credit hours), part-time work (about 20 hrs/week), job searching, outside projects for experience, a relationship, volunteering at church (piano, choir, food prep, etc), and I realized I will need to take classes in the summer as well, with no break beforehand. I'm just so burned out. Part of me doesn't want to say that, because I'm managing to keep deadlines and commitments, but I have less and less energy. I've taken a couple quizzes on health sites to get a better idea, and they both said I'm very burned out and need to do something about it asap. I just don't see it getting any easier anytime soon. I feel like it is affecting my relationship a lot because I'm frequently in a state of anxiety and worry, I find myself being very critical about little things (like if he didn't say good morning or didn't say what I wanted when I needed support). I feel really bad about it and I don't at all want to be a crazy or mean girlfriend, but I just feel like he doesn't understand what I'm going through. I feel like cutting back my schedule would be lazy, and I sometimes feel that anyone less busy than me is lazy. But it seems I am doing too much. I guess I just really want to have a healthy relationship and not sabotage it by being negative and stressed and exhausted all of the time. Thank you for reading <3
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Depression Support / by MoreThanAConqueror18
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 June 9th, 2020
...See more I always tell myself I'm fine because it goes away. But depression always comes back and it's exhausting trying to fight it again and again. When it's bad, I feel like I'm trapped in silence and can't reach out or don't know how to. And then when I feel better again, everything seems fine and I tell myself I don't need help. So I don't ask for help. I should be able to manage because I can still hide it most of the time. I should be able to "get over it." But I can't.
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Am I just avoiding help?
Depression Support / by MoreThanAConqueror18
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 December 16th, 2019
...See more So I've been struggling with depression on and off for about 2 1/2 years now, and while I don't consider it to have been severe (I've never been suicidal or anything like that), I have, however, thought about self harm numerous times, although most of those times I didn't consider it a valid option. I have definitely struggled with patterns of self-destructive thinking, which has been less severe over the past year or so, but it seems to be lingering. I've sometimes skipped meals as a sort of passive-aggressive self-harm, and although that's not very frequent, it seems to go along with the distorted thinking. I also have noticed that I'm really hard on myself in general and I feel like since I'm managing to appear okay most of the time, I should be able to deal with this alone. Lately I've really been feeling the need to express some of these things and even to get help, but it just seems so scary to have people know I'm struggling, and I'm afraid of what they'll think. I don't really know what to do; thoughts or advice are appreciated!! Thanks for reading ☺
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